07-17-2013, 04:26 PM
Well crap, I think I got ahead of myself a bit. I do feel better, but I didn't factor in the coffee I had in the morning when I had some of these realizations. Coffee tends to boost my mood temporarily, so I have to be aware what's real progress vs being on a high from caffeine.
That being said, I've noticed these past few days I've felt like my body is trying to process some emotional release. It's not like I have to cry, but it feels like I could. It just kind of feels like nausea, except it's affecting my entire body. I'm gonna go ahead and guess these past few weeks I've been toughing it out with willpower and now it's not working as well. When I didn't have a job I could deal with it better, I'd just take it easy the entire day and try to do something enjoyable and relaxing without putting too much pressure on myself. But now I don't really have a choice and it gets tiring pretending to be alright. I feel like once the weekend hits I don't want to do anything because I'm just drained from the work week.
That being said, I've noticed these past few days I've felt like my body is trying to process some emotional release. It's not like I have to cry, but it feels like I could. It just kind of feels like nausea, except it's affecting my entire body. I'm gonna go ahead and guess these past few weeks I've been toughing it out with willpower and now it's not working as well. When I didn't have a job I could deal with it better, I'd just take it easy the entire day and try to do something enjoyable and relaxing without putting too much pressure on myself. But now I don't really have a choice and it gets tiring pretending to be alright. I feel like once the weekend hits I don't want to do anything because I'm just drained from the work week.
