07-07-2013, 05:35 PM
(07-07-2013, 02:11 PM)mat422 Wrote: Just thought I'd write about something real quick. I've always struggled figuring out what I want to do in my life. So I've had a few paths, mostly taking them because I felt like I needed to. I was at a family bbq and my uncle was telling me I needed to go back to college. Here's the thing, college is fantastic if you go for something you want and if you go there to learn. I just can't justify putting myself into debt when I don't even know what I want to do. Getting a four year degree in a major that I might be interested in, it just doesn't seem like a good idea. And yet all around me people keep telling me I won't get hired without a 4 year degree. I feel like everyone just keeps parroting everyone else and it's that fear that keeps being perpetuated. I can't stand it. I can't stand feeling like I'm being bullied into making a "good" decision.
I've seen what happens when you let fear control your life and you end up making "safe" decisions. The individuals who are living lives that they enjoy are the ones that refused to give in to that fear and find their own paths. I'm still working on it. So much subtle pressure from everywhere, it's like trying to attain freedom and this huge vortex just wants to suck you back in.
Wow. I totally identify with this. It's like living in a cage but you don't know how far away the bars are so you don't know how far before you can get to freedom. Just keep pushing, like you said. Possibly get away from the familiar influences (something I plan to do soon as well), and I'm sure it'll be easier to change. Good luck.
