06-26-2013, 02:08 PM
So I've noticed I'm always trying to figure out this one thing that I feel is interfering with my life. But it's kind of a mix of things. Perfectionism is a recurring problem in my life. I've realized that it's a large contributor to my depression. The other thing would be my social anxiety.
Now obviously nobody can be perfect. I'm not entirely sure it's a self esteem thing. It feels more like it's on the OCD spectrum. I've got an obsession with doing things "right", anything less than that and I get anxiety. The problem is it's a very irrational feeling that is incredibly difficult to reason myself out of.
It sounds like something you can just snap out of or that I'm being ridiculous. Believe me, if anyone sees how ridiculous it is, it's me. I've made similar realizations in the past, but I never took it that seriously and I was very dismissive about the possibility. You see because I tend to be very perfectionist oriented my mind tends to ignore problems or issues and deny the authenticity of them.
Anyway. I'm finished up stage 2 soon. I think there has been a lot being processed. Today I woke up and felt like I kind of have a target to focus on with regards to what I'm dealing with instead of a huge overwhelming problem.
Now obviously nobody can be perfect. I'm not entirely sure it's a self esteem thing. It feels more like it's on the OCD spectrum. I've got an obsession with doing things "right", anything less than that and I get anxiety. The problem is it's a very irrational feeling that is incredibly difficult to reason myself out of.
It sounds like something you can just snap out of or that I'm being ridiculous. Believe me, if anyone sees how ridiculous it is, it's me. I've made similar realizations in the past, but I never took it that seriously and I was very dismissive about the possibility. You see because I tend to be very perfectionist oriented my mind tends to ignore problems or issues and deny the authenticity of them.
Anyway. I'm finished up stage 2 soon. I think there has been a lot being processed. Today I woke up and felt like I kind of have a target to focus on with regards to what I'm dealing with instead of a huge overwhelming problem.
