03-18-2012, 12:43 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-18-2012, 12:45 AM by RainbowAbyss.)
A couple days into stage 5
it started off amazing and feeling like everything was coming together
and has now settled down into a slightly more confident stage 4. I feel there is a HUGE
disconnect between my unconcious expectations and my concious expectations with woman and it is very strange. Last night was my birthday and a drank quite an excess and had an amazingly fun night. My friend brought her super sexy friend who I talked to for a bit and then she followed me and then we all started socializing with more people. Right now I feel such confusion with woman...in general there seems to be this mixture of incredible attraction and complete lack of respect..maybe its shit test.. IDK I cant even tell any more lol..in any case its a strange mix and sometimes its a blast and I just have fun with it and other times it pisses me off.
Jealousy is at an all time high emotionally but it only effects me in the physical sense my mind always realizes what is going on and either takes action or lets it go.
At the end of st. patty tonight I started talking with these two '10' girls it was a blast we were all having so much fun and then when I left and came back my brother was talking to them and totally f everything up lol (he said he was paying me back and that I deserved it for making out with the girl he was talking to the night before when I was pretty much black out drunk..I kind of remember something like that ..ce la vie)...they liked him but then our other two friends came over and it was like vultures picking on my kill lol..one they were really into and they other made it akward..whatever I couldn't take it and the girls left soon afterwards. I asked the meaner..but more my type one for her phone number..but she said she had I boyfriend..but shit was already going downhill for whatever reasons and then she got really boring and started getting all weird so I told her I hated her (jokingly) and we said our goodbyes. I feel a little trapped these days its like I don't want to try to do anything..but if I don't try I automatically cant succeed..
I want more manifestation!!! Its clearly the only solution lol
it started off amazing and feeling like everything was coming together
and has now settled down into a slightly more confident stage 4. I feel there is a HUGE
disconnect between my unconcious expectations and my concious expectations with woman and it is very strange. Last night was my birthday and a drank quite an excess and had an amazingly fun night. My friend brought her super sexy friend who I talked to for a bit and then she followed me and then we all started socializing with more people. Right now I feel such confusion with woman...in general there seems to be this mixture of incredible attraction and complete lack of respect..maybe its shit test.. IDK I cant even tell any more lol..in any case its a strange mix and sometimes its a blast and I just have fun with it and other times it pisses me off.
Jealousy is at an all time high emotionally but it only effects me in the physical sense my mind always realizes what is going on and either takes action or lets it go.
At the end of st. patty tonight I started talking with these two '10' girls it was a blast we were all having so much fun and then when I left and came back my brother was talking to them and totally f everything up lol (he said he was paying me back and that I deserved it for making out with the girl he was talking to the night before when I was pretty much black out drunk..I kind of remember something like that ..ce la vie)...they liked him but then our other two friends came over and it was like vultures picking on my kill lol..one they were really into and they other made it akward..whatever I couldn't take it and the girls left soon afterwards. I asked the meaner..but more my type one for her phone number..but she said she had I boyfriend..but shit was already going downhill for whatever reasons and then she got really boring and started getting all weird so I told her I hated her (jokingly) and we said our goodbyes. I feel a little trapped these days its like I don't want to try to do anything..but if I don't try I automatically cant succeed..
I want more manifestation!!! Its clearly the only solution lol
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
