01-24-2012, 06:34 AM
almost a month into stage three,
I finally moved out of my childhood home last wed. and into a small but beautiful new apt
in Brooklyn with my brother, we split the rent but are for all intensive purposes fully financially independent and saving money with each other's aid. Bless my mom for her support but it is an amazing thing to feel no need or debt (emotionally and financially ) to/for it, I never imagined how much it more at home in the world I would automatically feel. Its like I have uncovered a new drive and confidence in life that was being covered up.
I didn't think I would miss home but literally the first night out I had a mental breakdown for about an hour and after that it was like a the last 2 years of negative condition, of living in what was left of the essentially dysfunctional family I was in, just disappeared.
As of sex magnet news, there are moments of sheer genius, in the womanizing sense, but for the most part it if very hard to discern anything going on. The changes are so subtle and not really changing my behavior towards more sex or manifesting any sex towards me but I've learned by now to wait to the end of the set. Well actually the changes are obvious but don't seem to be doing too much, or enough, towards the cause of the set. The one obvious change is that woman seem to have sexual impulses around me but are as often uncomfortable or seemingly dismissive of these impulses as they are enamored by me, meaning its kind of hit or miss. At times I find myself with some social anxiety cause by sexual tension, to the point of rending me speechless, which is very unusual for me. I feel 'softer' and less and feel power from flow rather than force. There is definitely some amazing moments with woman but's I am often at a loss to act, as I feel almost feminine in that the woman should approach me, and I am someone who has sacked up and consistently 'cold' approached woman on a regular basis, far before subliminals, to both great success and humorous not so much success. Anyone who remembers what stage 3 SM was like-please chime in as to its effects/results in your lifel, I want to know if I am adapting to the scrip successfully. Shannon any word from you about the proper effects of stage 3 would be much appreciated
I've been a very preoccupied with other things of late so I will report back again after being in scenarios where I relate more to woman outside of travel and girls I already know.
Also I took my first night off of subliminals in several month, no laptop with me, and the effects of SM were MUCH more pronounced after a night of not listening? why is this? integration.
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I finally moved out of my childhood home last wed. and into a small but beautiful new apt
in Brooklyn with my brother, we split the rent but are for all intensive purposes fully financially independent and saving money with each other's aid. Bless my mom for her support but it is an amazing thing to feel no need or debt (emotionally and financially ) to/for it, I never imagined how much it more at home in the world I would automatically feel. Its like I have uncovered a new drive and confidence in life that was being covered up.
I didn't think I would miss home but literally the first night out I had a mental breakdown for about an hour and after that it was like a the last 2 years of negative condition, of living in what was left of the essentially dysfunctional family I was in, just disappeared.
As of sex magnet news, there are moments of sheer genius, in the womanizing sense, but for the most part it if very hard to discern anything going on. The changes are so subtle and not really changing my behavior towards more sex or manifesting any sex towards me but I've learned by now to wait to the end of the set. Well actually the changes are obvious but don't seem to be doing too much, or enough, towards the cause of the set. The one obvious change is that woman seem to have sexual impulses around me but are as often uncomfortable or seemingly dismissive of these impulses as they are enamored by me, meaning its kind of hit or miss. At times I find myself with some social anxiety cause by sexual tension, to the point of rending me speechless, which is very unusual for me. I feel 'softer' and less and feel power from flow rather than force. There is definitely some amazing moments with woman but's I am often at a loss to act, as I feel almost feminine in that the woman should approach me, and I am someone who has sacked up and consistently 'cold' approached woman on a regular basis, far before subliminals, to both great success and humorous not so much success. Anyone who remembers what stage 3 SM was like-please chime in as to its effects/results in your lifel, I want to know if I am adapting to the scrip successfully. Shannon any word from you about the proper effects of stage 3 would be much appreciated
I've been a very preoccupied with other things of late so I will report back again after being in scenarios where I relate more to woman outside of travel and girls I already know.
Also I took my first night off of subliminals in several month, no laptop with me, and the effects of SM were MUCH more pronounced after a night of not listening? why is this? integration.
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1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
