11-24-2011, 02:50 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-24-2011, 02:50 AM by RainbowAbyss.)
wow-don't everyone blow up this journal at once...
2 nights on stage two-drastic difference.
Its like all the tension and motivation and drive I had in stage 1 got lifted over night.
I feel super open and relaxed, all the time and very indifferent. Not really feeling that horny any more except when I focus on it-I can bring up a sexual state really quickly by focusing on my body.
Its seems this stage is doing something to refocus my means of generating sexuality. As of stage 1 I was very into visual sexuality-like my mind would be running with images whenever I experienced strong sexual desire-now its just open and there with a clear mind.
My energy feels like it connects to many woman seamlessly
I don't feel very edgy-which is very strange feeling to have because edgy-ness is a quality I have become very familiar with and even come to love.
I'm getting a lot of eye contact as well as feeling like doing whatever I do, or being social in whatever way, with total focus and disregard to whoever is around except the person I am engaging.
My friends and I all threw together a pre-thanksgiving thanksgiving party-where we all cooked and baked and brought stuff. I was the only one of my male friends there without a girlfriend, and by the end of the night everyone was cuddling with each other. All six present were some of my closest friends so it was a lot of fun and by no means strange for me to be around but it was the first time ever-without feeling needy and without feeling like 'I just didn't give a shit', that I felt a strong desire for that without really caring at the same time. I don't know if its an effect of stage two but it seems more possible and super simple to me now to just get a girl to come to stuff like that with me which I never even thought about before for whatever reason.
2 nights on stage two-drastic difference.
Its like all the tension and motivation and drive I had in stage 1 got lifted over night.
I feel super open and relaxed, all the time and very indifferent. Not really feeling that horny any more except when I focus on it-I can bring up a sexual state really quickly by focusing on my body.
Its seems this stage is doing something to refocus my means of generating sexuality. As of stage 1 I was very into visual sexuality-like my mind would be running with images whenever I experienced strong sexual desire-now its just open and there with a clear mind.
My energy feels like it connects to many woman seamlessly
I don't feel very edgy-which is very strange feeling to have because edgy-ness is a quality I have become very familiar with and even come to love.
I'm getting a lot of eye contact as well as feeling like doing whatever I do, or being social in whatever way, with total focus and disregard to whoever is around except the person I am engaging.
My friends and I all threw together a pre-thanksgiving thanksgiving party-where we all cooked and baked and brought stuff. I was the only one of my male friends there without a girlfriend, and by the end of the night everyone was cuddling with each other. All six present were some of my closest friends so it was a lot of fun and by no means strange for me to be around but it was the first time ever-without feeling needy and without feeling like 'I just didn't give a shit', that I felt a strong desire for that without really caring at the same time. I don't know if its an effect of stage two but it seems more possible and super simple to me now to just get a girl to come to stuff like that with me which I never even thought about before for whatever reason.
1. There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
2. A thinker sees his own actions as experiments and questions... Success and failure are for him answers above all.
3. I would not know what the spirit of a philosopher might wish more then to be than a good dancer.-F.N.
