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[Ryan]

I'll start off in the spirit of a teenage locker room talk: first night after listening to Sex Magnet-had sex
This thread will be dedicated as a journal to my
my experiences, progress, and (cross my fingers) future womanizing, may it be shameless and filled with integrity, while under the subliminal influence of the Sex Magnet set.
I started the set last Friday night, for 9 hours and woke up feeling, good but very different, hard to explain, but unusual. I felt more sprightly, slightly more care free . Throughout the day, I felt very willing to be social and was enjoying conversations with neighbors, family, and friends more than usual, but despite this things people said, in the past (after alpha or during refresher course) would have slipped right off me, now were really ticking me off and getting me irritated. Anyway no more boring details, that morning I sent a text to a girl I had been on one 'date' with maybe 3 weeks before but hadn't really been in touch or seen each other since. We got into a great flirty very sexual text rapport, I said "we should get together and do it" referring to hunting down a fake thief I pretended stole something of hers, and she wrote back " your full of great ideas, yes, we should get together and do it!" Anyway we met up for drinks later and one thing led to another, she came back to my house and next thing I knew we had sex. It was a great time and very enjoyable, I really felt much freer and more relaxed than usual. Although she did say I seemed not that into her during the second round. So far I feel I can get very internally agitated and unpresent, hopefully stage 1 releasing crap. Anyway I went out later that night and definitely was just more playful, and somehow more indifferent to and way more invested in woman at the same time, its kind of hard to explain. My really good mood would frequently get this sudden interrupts of intense upset, jealousy, negative emotions, but they would last for like 2-10 seconds and be gone. But I was approaching woman pretty fearlessly, and thats normally something I do pretty much on the reg. but that night I felt like there was no barrier to overcome, no get ready GO, it was just smooth fun and on.
Woke up this morning after around 10 hours of listening and felt tired as a mofo, felt very surreal and detached, very rugged and rough around the edges, felt much more arrogant than usual and a little self conscious but also very comfortable with it, got a few 'eyes' from girls and have definitely started feeling some combustion inside, as they day went on my mood got progressively worse and worse and a bit of background apathy was creeping in, not to mention at times I just wont to rip the clothes of some girls but also feel so detached, its kind of a frustrating thing lol. this set is definitively making me pooped and bringing up some rough stuff, as of day 2 haha.
I went out to dinner with my twin and my mom and was having flashes of jealous and or being despondent whenever my twin was interacting with girls, I NEVER have this, maybe in the past extremely rarely but not for years. I felt while some women were blatantly showing signs of interest, it seems like girls are very aloof and the moment I interact with them the light up. In fact already I'm noticing people, and especially woman are opening up more and very quickly. Enjoying the sub so far and glad to finally be on it.

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Ryan