09-04-2016, 07:43 AM
I want to believe I am confident and self-assured but something inside of me is stopping me from allowing me to 100% believe that. I still have the thought of other people's opinion and what they would say or react if i said something instead of owning my thoughts and actions. I use drugs to mask my insecurities: Alcohol,weed.... they both allow me to express myself freely and allow me to be a very social guy. Deep down inside it hurts knowing that i need the drugs to reach that level, I want to be able to be that guy without needing anything external
"I don't want to be a product of my environment....I want my environment to be a product of me."