Had a little bit of negativity come up today and yesterday but it wasn't so bad.. maybe this stuff is in the final stages of being released. I still think about some girls that I screwed up with in the past but i let my self think about it. If I get any negative vibes I just switch my train of thought.. but If I'm not what usually happens is me feeling very grateful and happy for those experiences because it has allowed me be where I am here today and in life. Through all those frustrations great things have happened.
Also last night I decided to write out a whole page of gratitude affirmations instead of just half a page. And I had a beautiful song on: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ety_D50ssHg
To continue... when I got about half way down the page a wave of something hit me... I'd maybe call it compassion and gratitude for all liveing things. I began to smile so brightly and I started crying. for about 5 seconds it started to really build up but something inside me held me back from completely letting it all out... I don't exactly know why this happened but I cried for a few minutes but I either conciously or subconciously didn't let my self go all the way. Either way it was beautiful.. and I really just want to cry like a fucking baby again.. but for all the good reasons in the world.
Also last night I decided to write out a whole page of gratitude affirmations instead of just half a page. And I had a beautiful song on: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ety_D50ssHg
To continue... when I got about half way down the page a wave of something hit me... I'd maybe call it compassion and gratitude for all liveing things. I began to smile so brightly and I started crying. for about 5 seconds it started to really build up but something inside me held me back from completely letting it all out... I don't exactly know why this happened but I cried for a few minutes but I either conciously or subconciously didn't let my self go all the way. Either way it was beautiful.. and I really just want to cry like a fucking baby again.. but for all the good reasons in the world.
