I feel neutral today.. and I have some social nerves it seems today. I was in the kitchen filling up my cup of water and one of the really sexy girls that works up front was in as well about to get some water. she asked which one to use and I told her use the filter one and at first I had a feeling of social anxiety come up but I immediatly let it go. I did not have a problem answering her question. I was aloof because I had no desire to socialize and it seems to be that way with girls right now. I looked at her too when answering her question but she wasnt looking at me so I looked away because I just didn't care for the eye contact. I began walking out and she started making fun of herself lol and I was like yea well you def. know which one you should be drinking out of now and when I said that was the only time I turned back and we locked eyes for maybe a second and then I went about my business. Either way I'm not quite half way through stage 2 so this seems to be normal I guess. Also when I was talking to her I projected my deep voice and it was effortless once I let go of the anxiety. I'm still in the process of making my rhythmic deep breathing subconscious but I'm getting closer.
EDIT: I'm still feeling pretty good about myself... and I'm making it my second priority second to work to being as positive and open minded during this process as much as possible.. and If I have to I am willing to lose sleep over it. Because the last week I've had so much shit going on in my head!
EDIT: I'm still feeling pretty good about myself... and I'm making it my second priority second to work to being as positive and open minded during this process as much as possible.. and If I have to I am willing to lose sleep over it. Because the last week I've had so much shit going on in my head!
