08-11-2015, 08:50 AM
so right now I am at Stage 1 Am6, my 3rd run after running AM6 and AM5 in between the past 2 years.
A problem or question that I do not get is: why is it that I feel the same/ almost the same in stage 1 like before I started the sub? Am I not supposed to be feel like an AM already, given that I have ran it for two times?
I mean the sub definitely works, but given the assumption that I have ran it already, I am supposed to be (not sure if it’s the right hypothesis) feeling powerful, confident, all those effects from Stage 6 already, at least most of them even through stage 1. However after 9 days into stage 1 for a new run-through I feel insecure and unconfident, but more importantly I do not feel that the effects from the past were overlapping. It almost feels like I am back to my old-self again, as if I have these two versions me, one that is strong, secure and confident, and the other one is like right now, without that much power. I know that the “strong me” will come back in the later stages, but I need some sort of understanding on why I still feel the “weak me” even after all this effort.
I also want to know if it’s correct that I am feeling like this, if the sub is designed to work like this. I mean, stage 1 is said to clear out all the “garbage”, but it does not specifically say that it will decimate all the other programmings I have had from previous run-throughs from this sub, that’s why I am confused as I haven’t felt powerless like this ever since the last time I ran it.
I know I lack deeper understanding on this, but I need someone to point out. Sorry if the wording sounds confusing because it’s very late at night.
A problem or question that I do not get is: why is it that I feel the same/ almost the same in stage 1 like before I started the sub? Am I not supposed to be feel like an AM already, given that I have ran it for two times?
I mean the sub definitely works, but given the assumption that I have ran it already, I am supposed to be (not sure if it’s the right hypothesis) feeling powerful, confident, all those effects from Stage 6 already, at least most of them even through stage 1. However after 9 days into stage 1 for a new run-through I feel insecure and unconfident, but more importantly I do not feel that the effects from the past were overlapping. It almost feels like I am back to my old-self again, as if I have these two versions me, one that is strong, secure and confident, and the other one is like right now, without that much power. I know that the “strong me” will come back in the later stages, but I need some sort of understanding on why I still feel the “weak me” even after all this effort.
I also want to know if it’s correct that I am feeling like this, if the sub is designed to work like this. I mean, stage 1 is said to clear out all the “garbage”, but it does not specifically say that it will decimate all the other programmings I have had from previous run-throughs from this sub, that’s why I am confused as I haven’t felt powerless like this ever since the last time I ran it.
I know I lack deeper understanding on this, but I need someone to point out. Sorry if the wording sounds confusing because it’s very late at night.
AM5 -> AM6 -> BASE -> AM6 -> BASE -> AM6(Current)
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