AM6 conflicts (Shannon?)

[robstar]

Hey,

depends upon why you had problems within your first run through.
I have to say it did not feel good when going through the early stages. It was better at the end and it was great afterwards. But it seems like the depression or the bad feeling or resistance comes from a place within you that realizes you are not satisfied with your life and your direction. You could use a "I am happy"-program (and some time in future I will use one), but it will just keep you happy. Releasing is just gonna release bad stuff. What the Alpha program does is to make you go after your life goal or find some meaning and value for you. It makes you feel bad if you are sitting on the couch watching stuff on TV because deep within you, you KNOW that is not what you were born for.

You have one life. Make it count!

But I guess what I'm asking, is if my 'life goal' is happiness itself, will AM6 still help me acheive and pursue that? I've realised everyone is seeking happiness in the world, but its not there, its in us. I don't want to do an "I am happy" program, because it means I won't be clearing the deep dark shit.
And all this talk about not being supposed to do releasing/clearing work while doing subs makes me wonder if I'm spinning my wheels. If thats honestly the case, I'm more committed to releasing than to subliminals, so I'm wondering if I'm better off dropping the subs. I guess all I can do is complete this run of AM6 while releasing daily and see what happens! Not saying I haven't enjoyed the results of the subs, just that they made me a little more "outer-world focused".
As for the feeling bad for sitting on the couch watching tv, well in my experience, feeling bad and being hard on myself always makes me worse. The times I have genuinely fully accepted myself for doing things like that, is where the need has dropped away and I stopped. So if AM forces me to feel bad about it, it tends to make me dig my heels in harder.
Sorry if my train of thought is all over the place, I'm just a little confused and mentally everywhere at the moment, and I'm finding it hard to write what I want to express and ask in words.