Fear of death is coming back. Heard so many things about war. Today my teacher literally said "Do whatever you are planning to do, our country will be changed soon, and we will have no chance to do it". It is quite terrible hearing that. The positive thing i could think about this is living like there is no tomorrow. From now on. We don't know whatever will come up tomorrow. I go on the street and boom, I die, who knows. Look like the sub is give me reason to live fully, to do the things that I still keep in my mind, things that I hesitated to do.
I go out and do the masculine intent exercises about approaching girls, and I see I become more calm than ever, like any judgement can't affect me anymore and rejection too. The mindset that I could control 10% of things, which is just myself, start to install. Letting a lot of urge to control, to have specific responses of girls, of pp, actually made me feel more free. Yes, they have their choices, their own mindset, their feeling, who know at that moment they are sad and refuse. I think the word rejection affect much to our personalities. It was not rejection, and it has nothing to do to in saying who I am. If a girl refuses me, it does not mean she does not like me or I'm a loser, it just mean she haven't seen or felt how awesome I am yet, it takes time, and my job is patiently teach her, lead her to see who I am. If she doesn't see it, she lost the awesome time being around me.
Will do the exercise one more time to see what happen.
I go out and do the masculine intent exercises about approaching girls, and I see I become more calm than ever, like any judgement can't affect me anymore and rejection too. The mindset that I could control 10% of things, which is just myself, start to install. Letting a lot of urge to control, to have specific responses of girls, of pp, actually made me feel more free. Yes, they have their choices, their own mindset, their feeling, who know at that moment they are sad and refuse. I think the word rejection affect much to our personalities. It was not rejection, and it has nothing to do to in saying who I am. If a girl refuses me, it does not mean she does not like me or I'm a loser, it just mean she haven't seen or felt how awesome I am yet, it takes time, and my job is patiently teach her, lead her to see who I am. If she doesn't see it, she lost the awesome time being around me.
Will do the exercise one more time to see what happen.
