06-07-2015, 06:22 AM
Thanks guys, I'll leave the natural grounding then. I've found something even more exciting anyway. I'm really getting into bodywork. Got a sexual feldenkrais audio program yesterday. Did the first part - sexual presence - last night. It's just simple small movements that make you aware of all the parts of the body that are involved. I noticed I started becoming more in tune with my energy, especially the next day. Woke up and tapped my kidneys plus a spinal flow. Suddenly the energey sensations were so much more intense than normal. The idea of feldenkrais and other bodywork techniques is they unlock the body which in turns increases the access to energy and sensations.
I noticed when I was on the bus and I noticed this really attractive woman. Instantly I felt connected to my desire for her in my body. Was so good.
I found some really interesting sounding books today on bodywork practices. One apparently helps to unlock the negative emotions in the body. Got lots to read and practice tomorrow.
I did my energy practices yesterday and today. Didn't notice any anger arise, although I think a minor amount came up tonight. That's great, it means that the blockages are maybe smaller now.
Still getting about 19-20 hours a day on the subs. Noticing what appears to be much more centredness and a bit more leadership. I was going to social drinks today and someone asked where we should meet. I wrote back and said where I was going to be. Then later when the group couldn't decide where to go afterwards I made a suggestion and that's where we ended up going.
There was a really cool girl in the group. We had an in.
At one point we were talking about fifty shades of grey. She asked if I was into that sort of thing. I then asked where her limit was. She thought about it for a second and then said it was a bit personal. Funny though, previously I would be really humiliated and would feel majorly awkward. But this time I was feeling a minor bit of discomfort for a second, but then I was cool.
I had a really interesting experience with another girl. The girl in our group convinced two random girls to join us. I didn't chat with them too much, but one I was talking to her and she was looking left and right. Made me really uncomfortable so I wandered off. It wasn't like she was looking away from me as though she didn't want to talk with me. I did feel a bit of disconnect from her. It was like her body was angled away from me, but not a lot. It was like at one moment she couldn't lock eyes with me. Her eyes literally darted left and right. Maybe my sexual presence was active and I wasn't even aware of it...
The girl from the group, when she left she looked like she wasn't going to hug anyone. She kind of waved at us but I put my arms out and she came up, grinned and gave me a hug. Then said she loves hugs and insisted on getting one from everyone. I'm pretty sure if I hadn't offered she would have left hugless
It's pretty crazy how much I feel my body now that I've started on body work. I think I mentioned this before. Even just sitting here curving my upper body left and right is sending pleasurable sensations through my back and spine.
I noticed when I was on the bus and I noticed this really attractive woman. Instantly I felt connected to my desire for her in my body. Was so good.
I found some really interesting sounding books today on bodywork practices. One apparently helps to unlock the negative emotions in the body. Got lots to read and practice tomorrow.
I did my energy practices yesterday and today. Didn't notice any anger arise, although I think a minor amount came up tonight. That's great, it means that the blockages are maybe smaller now.
Still getting about 19-20 hours a day on the subs. Noticing what appears to be much more centredness and a bit more leadership. I was going to social drinks today and someone asked where we should meet. I wrote back and said where I was going to be. Then later when the group couldn't decide where to go afterwards I made a suggestion and that's where we ended up going.
There was a really cool girl in the group. We had an in.
At one point we were talking about fifty shades of grey. She asked if I was into that sort of thing. I then asked where her limit was. She thought about it for a second and then said it was a bit personal. Funny though, previously I would be really humiliated and would feel majorly awkward. But this time I was feeling a minor bit of discomfort for a second, but then I was cool.
I had a really interesting experience with another girl. The girl in our group convinced two random girls to join us. I didn't chat with them too much, but one I was talking to her and she was looking left and right. Made me really uncomfortable so I wandered off. It wasn't like she was looking away from me as though she didn't want to talk with me. I did feel a bit of disconnect from her. It was like her body was angled away from me, but not a lot. It was like at one moment she couldn't lock eyes with me. Her eyes literally darted left and right. Maybe my sexual presence was active and I wasn't even aware of it...
The girl from the group, when she left she looked like she wasn't going to hug anyone. She kind of waved at us but I put my arms out and she came up, grinned and gave me a hug. Then said she loves hugs and insisted on getting one from everyone. I'm pretty sure if I hadn't offered she would have left hugless
It's pretty crazy how much I feel my body now that I've started on body work. I think I mentioned this before. Even just sitting here curving my upper body left and right is sending pleasurable sensations through my back and spine.
