05-20-2015, 09:18 PM
stage 5 day 8
Icealive enlightened me on affecting people in my surroundings being affected by subliminals, and that has me slightly above concerned. I'm already pretty deep into the programming, and I can't reduce my hours to stop affecting those around me over it. But then again, I would HATE others to be affected negatively so i'm kind of at a standstill at how to move forward, but i will stick to my schedule until a solution shows up. I might end up getting sleep phones like I saw another member used.
Alright my motives behind women are becoming very apparent to myself, as much as I wanted to hide behind it/ashamed to admit. looks like one of the black girls is getting really attached, the one who said she wants to find the right one. I definitely am not looking to get into a relationship, as much as I thought I wanted a relationship. I just want to get the dicky sticky. This brings me back to my motives. I don't think I'm ashamed to admit that to myself, and to my guy friends.. And I definitely don't want to use a girl for poon and just ditch her, I can't bring myself to do that. I see 'players' do that all the time and it's heart breaking, the way the girls get toyed with. But the guys who do this, usually get the hottest girls. My internet game has me pulling in 4/s and 5/s lol.... but hey that's light years better than i was doing for the past 5 years.
Icealive enlightened me on affecting people in my surroundings being affected by subliminals, and that has me slightly above concerned. I'm already pretty deep into the programming, and I can't reduce my hours to stop affecting those around me over it. But then again, I would HATE others to be affected negatively so i'm kind of at a standstill at how to move forward, but i will stick to my schedule until a solution shows up. I might end up getting sleep phones like I saw another member used.
Alright my motives behind women are becoming very apparent to myself, as much as I wanted to hide behind it/ashamed to admit. looks like one of the black girls is getting really attached, the one who said she wants to find the right one. I definitely am not looking to get into a relationship, as much as I thought I wanted a relationship. I just want to get the dicky sticky. This brings me back to my motives. I don't think I'm ashamed to admit that to myself, and to my guy friends.. And I definitely don't want to use a girl for poon and just ditch her, I can't bring myself to do that. I see 'players' do that all the time and it's heart breaking, the way the girls get toyed with. But the guys who do this, usually get the hottest girls. My internet game has me pulling in 4/s and 5/s lol.... but hey that's light years better than i was doing for the past 5 years.
