05-04-2015, 08:39 PM
stage 4 day 23
i'm still around. i just haven't felt the need to update my journal with what now seems like menial day to day happenings which seem to be the same day after day. no real reason to complain about anything, no significant resistance aside from fleeting feelings of worthlessness that come and go. Neediness with girls is at an all time low, and although my attraction to women have been getting higher and higher, I don't feel that heart sinking urge to go talk to her or be with her.neediness destruction I remember in stage 3 how I was struck with a profound sense of "wow this woman is really beautiful on the inside!", now it isn't so much conscious. I guess the superficial veil has been lifted to a degree. realizing women are good to be in the company of, and not putting them on a pedestal
Life's been going on around me, I'm really enjoying being in the moment and taking life as it comes.
In looking for a supplement to help endure long hours of subs, I've in a roundabout way created my first product for the business I've been planning for 5 years. I just need to test the doses on myself and titrate it until the product is perfected, and finally will get something to upload onto my website for sale. seek the challenge optimus engine
I've started making more money at work, making far more sales (commission) which allows for more money in the pocket and am due for my 3rd raise (in base pay) in 9 months. success programming
I've developed a refined sense of humor, still retaining my old silly comedic ways but delivered in a much more fun manner. humor enhancement
I've decided to grow out my goatee and stash, which has been 2 months and 1.5 months respectively. manliness?
I'm in a fairly constant state of serenity zen attitude
I'm surrounded by a solid group of guys and a couple girls who I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt love and care about me and my well being circle of friends and more importantly I have been able to get on an intimate level with (not romantic, mind you).
</end self searching>
I'm still around, I just haven't wanted to really post in this journal anymore, and the time definitely goes by WAY quicker when I get out of the subliminals' way. not to mention allows the subs to embody itself deeper into me.
thanks for reading; much love y'all.
i'm still around. i just haven't felt the need to update my journal with what now seems like menial day to day happenings which seem to be the same day after day. no real reason to complain about anything, no significant resistance aside from fleeting feelings of worthlessness that come and go. Neediness with girls is at an all time low, and although my attraction to women have been getting higher and higher, I don't feel that heart sinking urge to go talk to her or be with her.neediness destruction I remember in stage 3 how I was struck with a profound sense of "wow this woman is really beautiful on the inside!", now it isn't so much conscious. I guess the superficial veil has been lifted to a degree. realizing women are good to be in the company of, and not putting them on a pedestal
Life's been going on around me, I'm really enjoying being in the moment and taking life as it comes.
In looking for a supplement to help endure long hours of subs, I've in a roundabout way created my first product for the business I've been planning for 5 years. I just need to test the doses on myself and titrate it until the product is perfected, and finally will get something to upload onto my website for sale. seek the challenge optimus engine
I've started making more money at work, making far more sales (commission) which allows for more money in the pocket and am due for my 3rd raise (in base pay) in 9 months. success programming
I've developed a refined sense of humor, still retaining my old silly comedic ways but delivered in a much more fun manner. humor enhancement
I've decided to grow out my goatee and stash, which has been 2 months and 1.5 months respectively. manliness?
I'm in a fairly constant state of serenity zen attitude
I'm surrounded by a solid group of guys and a couple girls who I KNOW without a shadow of a doubt love and care about me and my well being circle of friends and more importantly I have been able to get on an intimate level with (not romantic, mind you).
</end self searching>
I'm still around, I just haven't wanted to really post in this journal anymore, and the time definitely goes by WAY quicker when I get out of the subliminals' way. not to mention allows the subs to embody itself deeper into me.
thanks for reading; much love y'all.
