04-04-2015, 09:00 PM
stage 3 day 25
Haven't been updating much. Been way too busy at work - got a decent pay upgrade/incentive (second time since starting AM6...), so that means less free time available to update journal.
One HUGE change I've noticed is that I don't feel the need to match other people's opinions anymore. I remember that I used to be "afraid" of sharing my point of view about something, since I was such a people pleaser and didn't want to get on anybody's bad side. Unrealistic, yes, but that's really how I was.
Now, I don't have a problem sharing my opinion on stuff. Even if it's menial things lol.
Females around me are definitely showing me more attention. I seem to get "I love you" comments a lot. I'm not really sure what it means; if they're just throwing those words out like candy? or is there something deeper to it? I'm pretty sure it's platonic; it may also have something to do with circle of friends manifestation.
I was hugging A goodbye at the taco place, and D comes in and hugs me too so it was a [eternitys_child] sandwich lol, and both of them say "I love you" to me. another girl G got up from her table at the taco place, and ran up to me from like 50 feet away as I was walking to the restaurant. It's nothing to call home about, but it's still pretty cool to see how much more attention I'm receiving now.
It also feels amazing to know a lot of people these days. My social circle gets bigger and bigger every week, which is really cool. The benefit I'm seeing from deactivating my facebook is the ability to connect with people on a slightly higher than superficial level now. I'd still like to be able to get intimate with people (not necessarily romantic), but practice makes perfect.
Haven't been updating much. Been way too busy at work - got a decent pay upgrade/incentive (second time since starting AM6...), so that means less free time available to update journal.
One HUGE change I've noticed is that I don't feel the need to match other people's opinions anymore. I remember that I used to be "afraid" of sharing my point of view about something, since I was such a people pleaser and didn't want to get on anybody's bad side. Unrealistic, yes, but that's really how I was.
Now, I don't have a problem sharing my opinion on stuff. Even if it's menial things lol.
Females around me are definitely showing me more attention. I seem to get "I love you" comments a lot. I'm not really sure what it means; if they're just throwing those words out like candy? or is there something deeper to it? I'm pretty sure it's platonic; it may also have something to do with circle of friends manifestation.
I was hugging A goodbye at the taco place, and D comes in and hugs me too so it was a [eternitys_child] sandwich lol, and both of them say "I love you" to me. another girl G got up from her table at the taco place, and ran up to me from like 50 feet away as I was walking to the restaurant. It's nothing to call home about, but it's still pretty cool to see how much more attention I'm receiving now.
It also feels amazing to know a lot of people these days. My social circle gets bigger and bigger every week, which is really cool. The benefit I'm seeing from deactivating my facebook is the ability to connect with people on a slightly higher than superficial level now. I'd still like to be able to get intimate with people (not necessarily romantic), but practice makes perfect.
