03-26-2015, 02:03 PM
Stage 3 Day 16
Yesterday and today have been horrible. I'm feeling an overwhelming sense of impending doom. Some very unhealthy decisions are seeming like a super bright idea right now, despite the consequences. I ended up telling T at the house yesterday something I've never told another human being, which might have contributed to the insanity. And that is a major source of guilt and shame.
Anger. Depression. Irritability. Guilt. Shame.
I feel like throwing away everything I've worked for this past 6 months.
I'm chalking this up as a win for resistance, but only for this battle.
Yesterday and today have been horrible. I'm feeling an overwhelming sense of impending doom. Some very unhealthy decisions are seeming like a super bright idea right now, despite the consequences. I ended up telling T at the house yesterday something I've never told another human being, which might have contributed to the insanity. And that is a major source of guilt and shame.
Anger. Depression. Irritability. Guilt. Shame.
I feel like throwing away everything I've worked for this past 6 months.
I'm chalking this up as a win for resistance, but only for this battle.
