03-19-2015, 09:19 AM
stage 3 day 10
I've noticed some behaviors that are different from past behaviors. I can't necessarily pinpoint it to being stage 3 but I can attribute it to AM6 in general.
Negative self talk is at an all time low. In fact, the battlefield that is my mind has slowed down a lot in general. It's still a minefield though. I'm more present, and in control of myself. The only way I can objectify it is by sharing that I've been getting told by lots of people how good it seems like I'm doing nowadays.
I'm blunt and upfront with a lot of stuff now, and have no second thought of how or what to say in a situation.
Examples:
The other night, Colin was saying during wrap up how he's usually pretty cool to accept criticism and as he said that I'm shaking my head no. He got a little hurt about that, and I felt bad for doing it in front of everybody but it was total bullshit what he said. So I stepped in and corrected him LOL but I didn't necessarily need to do that; the situation would have been ok without my input. I would not have done this a few month ago.
Yesterday at wrap up, Jeff was right next to me and when we got into closing circle, I smelled his stench and told him afterward that he smelled like a homeless person. I didn't feel the need to word it any better, I was just calling it like it is. I would DEFINITELY not have said it that way if I did say anything, if it were a few months ago. I would think about it but not say anything about it.
I'm getting irritated by people at work. Like REALLY irritated. I can see people bullshitting with their time, and it's annoying because I end up having to pick up some more slack on their behalf.; The crazy thing is, not too long ago I was in their shoes! And to an extent, still am. So why am I getting annoyed by things that I'm guilty of myself?! hypocrisy is what it feels like :/
I've noticed some behaviors that are different from past behaviors. I can't necessarily pinpoint it to being stage 3 but I can attribute it to AM6 in general.
Negative self talk is at an all time low. In fact, the battlefield that is my mind has slowed down a lot in general. It's still a minefield though. I'm more present, and in control of myself. The only way I can objectify it is by sharing that I've been getting told by lots of people how good it seems like I'm doing nowadays.
I'm blunt and upfront with a lot of stuff now, and have no second thought of how or what to say in a situation.
Examples:
The other night, Colin was saying during wrap up how he's usually pretty cool to accept criticism and as he said that I'm shaking my head no. He got a little hurt about that, and I felt bad for doing it in front of everybody but it was total bullshit what he said. So I stepped in and corrected him LOL but I didn't necessarily need to do that; the situation would have been ok without my input. I would not have done this a few month ago.
Yesterday at wrap up, Jeff was right next to me and when we got into closing circle, I smelled his stench and told him afterward that he smelled like a homeless person. I didn't feel the need to word it any better, I was just calling it like it is. I would DEFINITELY not have said it that way if I did say anything, if it were a few months ago. I would think about it but not say anything about it.
I'm getting irritated by people at work. Like REALLY irritated. I can see people bullshitting with their time, and it's annoying because I end up having to pick up some more slack on their behalf.; The crazy thing is, not too long ago I was in their shoes! And to an extent, still am. So why am I getting annoyed by things that I'm guilty of myself?! hypocrisy is what it feels like :/
