stage 2 day 9
I had a dream last night that I was trying to give my sister some subs. I was telling her to do LTU, and telling her to find a way to make sure she listens every day to get max benefit. I also had a dream that we were having a sunday house meeting at the lifeway table that i used to sit at for IOP. I saw P in the dream and she had a beard LOL
And damn, that first part of the dream actually ended up happening today. I told my sister about my use of AM6 a couple weeks back and asked her if she'd be interested in trying out EPRHA due to the family conflict going on right now. She said she'd use it, so I helped her download it, but she didn't follow through with it. I was telling her I'll buy her LTU sub today if she'll actually use it to its full advantage. I don't want to waste my money if she's not going to use it, so I'll ask her to get her setup going (speakers arranged in an effective manner in her room) and then I'll buy it for her.
This optimus engine seems like it's kicking ass because I don't feel any different than the day before but when I step back and look at myself, I definitely notice changes going on.
Today, I went to a rehab to attend a meeting, and I just approached a group of young cats talking, and just said "what's up guys, I'm [eternitys_child]". My name is a foreign name, so when one of them said "what was it? [attempt at pronunciation]" I responded "it's two english words put together [eternity] and [child]" and I used hand gestures for each word, and everyone started laughing.
As much as I wanted to practice on my flirting skills, I do NOT find it moral to be playing with the emotions of people new in sobriety, let alone a rehab. The lifestyle of drugs and alcohol is so intense that girls usually come into recovery shattered into a million pieces, and even though it would probably be an easy pick up, it would be horribly immoral.
I had a seizure 4 years ago that broke 3 of my ribs and 3 of my spine vertebrae, which to this day still causes me a great deal of pain. It's actually affected my posture quite a bit, and I notice myself slouching a lot. I wonder if this intrinsically re-programs me to feel "less than"? I despise surgery, especially when there's a chance I could become permanently paralyzed. But I would really like to correct my posture as naturally as possible. since people probably perceive me as not confident when I slouch the way I do, not to mention how it might negatively affect myself
I had a dream last night that I was trying to give my sister some subs. I was telling her to do LTU, and telling her to find a way to make sure she listens every day to get max benefit. I also had a dream that we were having a sunday house meeting at the lifeway table that i used to sit at for IOP. I saw P in the dream and she had a beard LOL
And damn, that first part of the dream actually ended up happening today. I told my sister about my use of AM6 a couple weeks back and asked her if she'd be interested in trying out EPRHA due to the family conflict going on right now. She said she'd use it, so I helped her download it, but she didn't follow through with it. I was telling her I'll buy her LTU sub today if she'll actually use it to its full advantage. I don't want to waste my money if she's not going to use it, so I'll ask her to get her setup going (speakers arranged in an effective manner in her room) and then I'll buy it for her.
This optimus engine seems like it's kicking ass because I don't feel any different than the day before but when I step back and look at myself, I definitely notice changes going on.
Today, I went to a rehab to attend a meeting, and I just approached a group of young cats talking, and just said "what's up guys, I'm [eternitys_child]". My name is a foreign name, so when one of them said "what was it? [attempt at pronunciation]" I responded "it's two english words put together [eternity] and [child]" and I used hand gestures for each word, and everyone started laughing.
As much as I wanted to practice on my flirting skills, I do NOT find it moral to be playing with the emotions of people new in sobriety, let alone a rehab. The lifestyle of drugs and alcohol is so intense that girls usually come into recovery shattered into a million pieces, and even though it would probably be an easy pick up, it would be horribly immoral.
I had a seizure 4 years ago that broke 3 of my ribs and 3 of my spine vertebrae, which to this day still causes me a great deal of pain. It's actually affected my posture quite a bit, and I notice myself slouching a lot. I wonder if this intrinsically re-programs me to feel "less than"? I despise surgery, especially when there's a chance I could become permanently paralyzed. But I would really like to correct my posture as naturally as possible. since people probably perceive me as not confident when I slouch the way I do, not to mention how it might negatively affect myself
