Started stage 6 yesterday.
What you guys said about the changes being more relevant when considering greater spans of time makes sense now.
Been noticing that when something that would cause me anger arises, I feel and know that I am the one who chooses how to respond to it. I can let it flow and release the emotion or suppress the emotion and use it's energy to find a better solution to the situation. Been choosing the latter more often. The contrast is really noticeable when compared to a few years ago, but not much from the time I began the program. Also, when angry, which is harder to happen now, I feel I don't need to yell. I don't raise my voice anymore, but express the anger in the tone of it. This is one of the changes that I like the most so far. People still notice I'm angry, but it's a controlled anger. Like a warning that tells them that they are crossing the line, and if they go any further, they will suffer the consequences.
It gives a great feeling of power. A feeling of power over myself and authority over others.
All would be good if AM wouldn't be reinforcing some traits I want to change. It's making me more introverted. Or maybe it's that I have less interest in people who have nothing to provide me. And since I'm having a hard time to find people who actually interest me, I am becoming more reserved and cold to others. Started to use OAAFM, since I saw it cointained OFGS's script, thinking it was some kind of resistance or low self-esteem holding me from getting to know these people (you know, like that behaviour where since you can't have it, you try to believe that you don't need it, often degradating it). But analyzing the meetings with these people, I discovered that the case is that I don't want those people following around and begging me for attention. They will only get in my way.
This leads to a question about what can I use to replace OAAFM. I'm thinking on something that makes me see the best of the persons and make it surface. Some call this ability leadership, other charisma. What are your recommendations on which program to use to develop these traits? And since AM may be the cause of these undesired traits being reinforced, should I finish AM first and then work on replacing these traits?
Thanks
What you guys said about the changes being more relevant when considering greater spans of time makes sense now.
Been noticing that when something that would cause me anger arises, I feel and know that I am the one who chooses how to respond to it. I can let it flow and release the emotion or suppress the emotion and use it's energy to find a better solution to the situation. Been choosing the latter more often. The contrast is really noticeable when compared to a few years ago, but not much from the time I began the program. Also, when angry, which is harder to happen now, I feel I don't need to yell. I don't raise my voice anymore, but express the anger in the tone of it. This is one of the changes that I like the most so far. People still notice I'm angry, but it's a controlled anger. Like a warning that tells them that they are crossing the line, and if they go any further, they will suffer the consequences.
It gives a great feeling of power. A feeling of power over myself and authority over others.
All would be good if AM wouldn't be reinforcing some traits I want to change. It's making me more introverted. Or maybe it's that I have less interest in people who have nothing to provide me. And since I'm having a hard time to find people who actually interest me, I am becoming more reserved and cold to others. Started to use OAAFM, since I saw it cointained OFGS's script, thinking it was some kind of resistance or low self-esteem holding me from getting to know these people (you know, like that behaviour where since you can't have it, you try to believe that you don't need it, often degradating it). But analyzing the meetings with these people, I discovered that the case is that I don't want those people following around and begging me for attention. They will only get in my way.
This leads to a question about what can I use to replace OAAFM. I'm thinking on something that makes me see the best of the persons and make it surface. Some call this ability leadership, other charisma. What are your recommendations on which program to use to develop these traits? And since AM may be the cause of these undesired traits being reinforced, should I finish AM first and then work on replacing these traits?
Thanks
