AM & GIRLS - COMMITMENT AND BALLS

[risingwarrior]

@LionMonkey Quick question since you did Alpha Male before. Post your first run of the AM program how many of the changes lasted when you weren't using the program? Or did they slowly fade out like with DMSI? And by changes I mean internal changes like emotional stability and external changes like meeting a girl or having an FWB

[LionMonkey]

@LionMonkey Quick question since you did Alpha Male before. Post your first run of the AM program how many of the changes lasted when you weren't using the program? Or did they slowly fade out like with DMSI? And by changes I mean internal changes like emotional stability and external changes like meeting a girl or having an FWB

@risingwarrior although it's many questions, your comment caught me in the right time.. enjoy.


Stage 6 - day 21

It's hard to say if AM effects are lasting etc. I stopped focusing and caring about other guys reactions to me after my last relationship.

I have more emotional stability than when I was younger for sure. I think it's natural to become more emotionally stable when you age. There are also traumas and inner-game related stuff that needs to be worked on to have a more solid foundation. In general though, when you get past the 18-25, you become more emotionally stable. The trauma and inner-game stuff are hidden triggers that can release an outburst of emotions.. most common is anger.

External changes.. On my first run of this subliminal, I didn't feel emotional stable.. in fact I felt a lot of fear because I had my back against the wall. At the time I was in my early 20's. Fear is a strong motivator though and was a big reason for the results with meeting girls.

This time I have run it, I'm much more alpha in the sense that I'm more rock solid. I've noticed lots of guys showing respect, some guys trying to bully and troll me and a few guys trying to confront me.

80-90% of the time I act as the Alpha I see myself being. 20-10% of the time I don't respond or act accordingly and it gets on my nerves.

Two examples:

1) Like walking with some friends to another club late night, then a guy bumps hard into me. We both keep walking and turn our heads looking back at each other. I wanted to punch his mouth and adrenaline rushed through my arms. I make a motion with my hand in an expressive way like a bullet going through him as the natural motion I had in that moment. I turn and keep walking with my friends with the thought that I didn't come visit this city and them to get in fights but to meet girls. The guy was saying something racist after I turned my back but no idea what it was. One could argue this situation is hard to act differently in future.

2) I say hi strongly to a girl walking in the bar. She's open, smiles and says hi back and stops a bit. Then I realize she was with a group of people, right behind her and she was just at the front, leading. The guy behind her said some B.S. that they are engaged. I responded weak and then he put his hand on my neck. Only after I realized I was weak and should have done things differently. Although he's bigger than me I don't fear a confrontation at all. It was the situation that was new to me and it happened very fast, hence my lack of response.

Reminds me of.. I don't know how it got developed more solidly.. most of the time I have very low to zero fear of confronting guys bigger than me. The 7 years of martial arts training have something to do with it.. but it was not as solid as it has been since the last year.. strange.


On the girls side it's difficult to say what has changed with this run of AM.

Here are some results from the past 2 weeks:
There were girls who tried to pick me up when the club was closing. I had some kisses with a few cuties after 30-60 seconds. I had girls really liking me after opening and I might have said 2-3 sentences, complying with my physicality. Also had a girl introduce me to her mom and sister as her husband. I had girls who wanted me to pull but wasn’t my type.

The results I'm having are not what I really want.. but I'm trying to understand and learn about it every day.


When I did the first run I had fear as fuel. This time I don't have fear to motivate me.

I wonder sometimes if I've become lazy.. if I've become too comfortable.. or if I'm actually starting to really learn about myself and how I work.

Either way.. I found 50% of life is to get myself into a lifestyle and position to be able to get what I want with less effort.
and the other 50% is creatively and enjoying doing so.


- LM

[LionMonkey]

Stage 6 - day 25

I did a meditation with a friend.

Dropped all preconceived notions, beliefs and what is good and bad.

I started taking everything in, not pushing anything away or avoiding things.

Feel very vulnerable and insecure in this state of being.

Yet I am more myself than I've been for a long time.

The mask is dropped and it feels scary.

-LM

[LionMonkey]

Stage 6 - day 31

1 day left of AM

For a recap, read previous longer post.

Since having done a meditation and self acceptance, things have started to go in the right direction.

I feel I have gotten to know myself again. Building my self-esteem on real ground.
I see the craziness of just being silent when meeting girls and them being all worked up.

Hmm.. what would a good next sub be...

[LionMonkey]

Is it adviced to take a break after a run of AM?

I kind of wanna just get into the next sub immediately!

-LM

[LionMonkey]

I am taking around 1 week off from subliminals.

Been 2 nights without any sound going on while sleeping.

Today had a dream where a guy confronts. Haven't been remembering my dreams for many months. Don't remmeber dreaming while on AM run.

So it's strange to me I remember now and it's related to AM stuff.

Here's the dream...

He was gangster looking type. Forgot his gold ring at the table where I was standing with a friend. I took the ring to inspect it and saw the details of it. My friend was like, no don't do it.

Gangster came back and I gave him the ring like it was no big deal. He took it and then suddenly put his arm in front of me in a clenched fist, holding his arm straight trying to have me falling off balance.

I tried to push his arm away with force. I didn't feel nervous or afraid. I was worked up though and woke up after I couldn't seem to push his arm away.

Lying in bed I felt a little uncomfortable and also no big deal. Went back to sleep.

Interesting stuff...

Meaning behind it? No fvkcing idea.

Have a great day!-LM

[LionMonkey]

Aftereffects


So while at the end of Stage 6, I didn't notice a lot of respect and stuff from other guys.

Lately I've been befriending guys pretty easily and naturally.
I would love to have that kind of intention with attractive women.

Examples from this week.

-met 4 different guys at different times who I will go out, have fun and meet chicks with

-got free VIP entrance by bouncer
Just by opening him and being aware of the social situation and being chill

-standing my ground when a beta trying to act alpha keeps trying to invade my mental and another beta my physical space
It was uncomfortable but I seem to be able to take / contain much more discomfort and negativity after beginning to accepting myself more. I had to focus and be more awake when these things was happening to not let the discomfort/negativity take over me.

-random but a short and petite crying girl my wing and I approached slapped our faces and kept kicking me.
Was a little surprised by her uncontrolled anger/rage unleashing it on strangers but I kept it cool like a rock.

At first I thought it was silly and she didn't hurt me at all but a bit later, I felt a little down. It must have been psychological because I had no physical traces.

"I let a stranger girl physically abuse me and I didn't do nothing about it. I allowed that".

Something like that was going through my mind and I felt I had disrespected myself.

When she saw I was unphased by her kicks, she tried to say some shit. It didn't register.

I think it is worth it to put that biitch down next time if some random crazy girl is attacking you like that.

Putting down like being commanding and telling her to stop or I will hit you back. Then we will see if a random biitch will keep attacking you. Been practicing martial arts in the past for 6 years so I feel confident in fighting.

The reasons I didn't do these things this time:
-she was a small girl and her slap and kicks were harmless although she meant each and every one of them.
-I didn't activate myself because I felt I didn't want to burst out my energy to overpower her rage. I can do serious harm when in "fighting mode" and would be capable of killing if I lost it. -LM

[Z-Man]

Aftereffects


So while at the end of Stage 6, I didn't notice a lot of respect and stuff from other guys.

Lately I've been befriending guys pretty easily and naturally.
I would love to have that kind of intention with attractive women.

Examples from this week.

-met 4 different guys at different times who I will go out, have fun and meet chicks with

-got free VIP entrance by bouncer
Just by opening him and being aware of the social situation and being chill

-standing my ground when a beta trying to act alpha keeps trying to invade my mental and another beta my physical space
It was uncomfortable but I seem to be able to take / contain much more discomfort and negativity after beginning to accepting myself more. I had to focus and be more awake when these things was happening to not let the discomfort/negativity take over me.

-random but a short and petite crying girl my wing and I approached slapped our faces and kept kicking me.
Was a little surprised by her uncontrolled anger/rage unleashing it on strangers but I kept it cool like a rock.

At first I thought it was silly and she didn't hurt me at all but a bit later, I felt a little down. It must have been psychological because I had no physical traces.

"I let a stranger girl physically abuse me and I didn't do nothing about it. I allowed that".

Something like that was going through my mind and I felt I had disrespected myself.

When she saw I was unphased by her kicks, she tried to say some shit. It didn't register.

I think it is worth it to put that biitch down next time if some random crazy girl is attacking you like that.

Putting down like being commanding and telling her to stop or I will hit you back. Then we will see if a random biitch will keep attacking you. Been practicing martial arts in the past for 6 years so I feel confident in fighting.

The reasons I didn't do these things this time:
-she was a small girl and her slap and kicks were harmless although she meant each and every one of them.
-I didn't activate myself because I felt I didn't want to burst out my energy to overpower her rage. I can do serious harm when in "fighting mode" and would be capable of killing if I lost it. -LM

That bitch isn't worth it. It is good you keep you cool. You might have killed her. Next time you grab her hand and throw her away from you.

[LionMonkey]

I've had more confrontations with guys after finishing this sub.

The pendulum is swinging more it seems.

On one end, I have made more new friends than I've had in a long time and set more boundaries with old friends.
The respects I'm given are stronger and of higher quality.

On the other end, I've come in conflict/confrontation with more guys than I've had in a very long time as well.

Example: last night I approached 2 hotties on small floor, suddenly guy comes behind my left shoulder. I unfortunately lost focus on my girl. He came in set, bumped me a bit and the girls were compliant to him and got me out of the set.

I bump into him a bit to take up my space that he's invaded. He says don't push me. I got a little angry but not much. I kept my space.
Then a few minutes later at entrance, I notice him walk towards me, looking like he's about to shoulder push me. I catch this and push him with my shoulder first. Fvcking idiot trying to invade my space again. Acting like he's better or smt. Then he says shit about what happened before from his perspective, I shouldn't push him and I tell him from mine perspective and that we can keep on going. I look him dead in the eyes. He then says you are not from here, fvck back to where you came from. I start laughing because he's wrong and that's the only thing he got.

Anyway, he left and then 30 seconds later the 2 girls left. So I'm 80% sure that they knew each other.

-LM

[LionMonkey]

Realization - your outer appearance and thought patterns.

In the last months I've forgotten to smile.
1) I was very focused on doing the hard things that I forgot to just smile and enjoy the pains and processes.

Eating very bitter things for health
Ending my showers with cold water
Going out every day for a month, most of the days solo

I must have come to a point where the signs pointed me in this direction of smiling again.
Noticed this when I showed a recorded video of me, presenting myself, to someone and she told me her honest perspective on it. I could totally see why she thought that.

Second thing that brought this to my attention was the hotties I found the most attractive. The 9'a and 10's . I realize they are this to me because they are always smiling.

The last thing was a natural guy I met and hung out with. It was crazy to see how open the women were initially to him. He's smiling a lot and just have positive, chill vibes.

It's funny how it completely changes the energy within and around me.

In general, not only have girls responded very favorably to my confidence in smiling. Guys are also more welcome and cool, except for the betas who's trying to overcome it and want me to react to their sad world.

Or gangster guys who used to resonate with the face I had before and sometimes would try to say shit or smt to get a reaction from me.

Now it seems they are staying away because they don't resonate with happiness or if they come in contact with me, trying to take up my space, and I confront them low key.. they see my smiling face and confident eyecontact, they show respect and walk away like it happened last night. Took me a minute to shake off the negative, heavy energy and the all was good again.


2) Also before I let my energetic protection down to allow and experience everything around me. I would be the empty space to contain and experience everything.

It was an interesting experiment for so long.

I can see though that it's more efficient to live life more edgy. To have something positive to loop on, daily, every moment and keep my focus on the right things and stay alert to move on or away whenever some situation or person isn't on the same page.

-LM

[LionMonkey]

Ran a marathon bc. why not.

Time was available and I wanted to get this done.

It's done.

I felt all the base human needs ENHANCED.
My thoughts also wanted me to stop during the last half of it regularly.

Interesting experience. Life lessons in it.

If you got 4-6 hours one day, you could do it too, assuming you are in decent shape.