04-14-2018, 05:14 PM
Day 17 Stage 1 - I've been feeling & probably acting very beta at work the last few days even though I'm having my best month so far. I've always been moderately paranoid that I was in trouble for something ever since I was a kid. I grew up with a very emotionally & physically abusive step father who had no problem demonstrating how much he obviously hated me. I was even blamed for being a bad influence on my step siblings. Having that pounded in to me literally & figuratively probably had more to do with the anxiety I've always felt. That's part of why I was so happy when I read that OGSF is in AM6. What happened to me when I was a kid made it so I freeze up at any sign of confrontation.
I'm fairly certain I will be do multiple runs of AM6
I'm fairly certain I will be do multiple runs of AM6
