10-06-2012, 03:28 PM
Stage 2, Mission accomplished. Started 9/4 Ended 10/6
Okkkkkkkkk this was lets say Not the easiest month of my life hmmm i'm not sure if i should thank shannon or punch him il decide on that with the next stages.
anyway Stage 2 was just full of stupid shit literally stupid shit i mean crazy shit i did some jaw dropping stuff like i cant mention it here but i can try to explain it i stood up for some big stuff and i mean stood up like a man to that stuff before if i had went through this situation i would have lets say killed people?
i have dealt with it in a way that let alone amazed some folks around me that is normal for me but it even amazed me it was like the anger was there but it is being processed differently.
i also broke down many times this month i even reached a point where i just put my head down and prayed for help.
i am becoming in a way more light hearted but at the same time more strict its basically like saying im a good guy yo but im not a "nice" guy, i actually said that to a girl the other day and she was shocked (and i was too) because she did some stupid shit but then i felt her respect for me increased big time.
hmm i have stopped caring about girls during half and at the end of this stage like really i just dont give a fuck and this is weird because i was very eager to start WM to the point where i wanted to stop AM and start WM but now im more like mehhh not that much but for some weird reason im watching porn (not my usuall).
im getting much more interest from girls and there's many of them talking to me lately but again i just don't care and with friends it is like mostly i don't even wanna go out but i'm doing it to look at progress i barely even want to go out honestly i'm not sure if im seeing alot of change with my friends im usually the type of guy at least in a group that does not talk that much and i dont joke alot the thing im feeling mostly is i dont care as much as before about what they think or weather they see it as awkward or anything.
i was bored alot too this month and i get ups and downs about me deserving stuff and then me not deserving them it is like a self struggle in a way.
my posture is much better now it used to be forced, because i used to read how my posture is supposed to be but now it feels more natural, i guess my voice projection has increased but again im not so sure about this one.
extremely excited about stage 3 and to see whats gonna pop up, this was just a small conclusion because i cant actually write down everything that actually happened and it has been a tough month i will miss it and hate it at the same time. oh and for some reason i have been feeling pulled away from this forum i dont really know why it feels like i am forcing myself lately to come on here and i dont like that.
Stage 3 Here We go girl!
Okkkkkkkkk this was lets say Not the easiest month of my life hmmm i'm not sure if i should thank shannon or punch him il decide on that with the next stages.
anyway Stage 2 was just full of stupid shit literally stupid shit i mean crazy shit i did some jaw dropping stuff like i cant mention it here but i can try to explain it i stood up for some big stuff and i mean stood up like a man to that stuff before if i had went through this situation i would have lets say killed people?
i have dealt with it in a way that let alone amazed some folks around me that is normal for me but it even amazed me it was like the anger was there but it is being processed differently.
i also broke down many times this month i even reached a point where i just put my head down and prayed for help.
i am becoming in a way more light hearted but at the same time more strict its basically like saying im a good guy yo but im not a "nice" guy, i actually said that to a girl the other day and she was shocked (and i was too) because she did some stupid shit but then i felt her respect for me increased big time.
hmm i have stopped caring about girls during half and at the end of this stage like really i just dont give a fuck and this is weird because i was very eager to start WM to the point where i wanted to stop AM and start WM but now im more like mehhh not that much but for some weird reason im watching porn (not my usuall).
im getting much more interest from girls and there's many of them talking to me lately but again i just don't care and with friends it is like mostly i don't even wanna go out but i'm doing it to look at progress i barely even want to go out honestly i'm not sure if im seeing alot of change with my friends im usually the type of guy at least in a group that does not talk that much and i dont joke alot the thing im feeling mostly is i dont care as much as before about what they think or weather they see it as awkward or anything.
i was bored alot too this month and i get ups and downs about me deserving stuff and then me not deserving them it is like a self struggle in a way.
my posture is much better now it used to be forced, because i used to read how my posture is supposed to be but now it feels more natural, i guess my voice projection has increased but again im not so sure about this one.
extremely excited about stage 3 and to see whats gonna pop up, this was just a small conclusion because i cant actually write down everything that actually happened and it has been a tough month i will miss it and hate it at the same time. oh and for some reason i have been feeling pulled away from this forum i dont really know why it feels like i am forcing myself lately to come on here and i dont like that.
Stage 3 Here We go girl!
