AM 5.0+AOS

[justint27]

Brilliant thank you

You said you learnt about facing fear so was thst because of AOS?

We're you not as interested in fashion etc before AOS?

I really hope I don't get any nightmares when I start. I'm gonna start with EPRHA I think to hit my fears and anxieties

265lbs.??? seriously?? how did you lose all that?

So you listen to the masked tracks through your monitor?
I hope your job side gets sorted

so it does seem like you get moments where your AOS disappears? like you relapse to the guy you once we're and then snap back?

Im not sure if it was AOS or AM that got me to face some of my fears, as I ran both when I first started.

I didn't care about clothes, like most guys. I just wore whatever my parents bought me for christmas, birthdays. I literally would wear the same 3 or 4 shirts for a year. I would wear the same pair of jeans for a couple or maybe even 3-4 yrs - the crotch would blow out and i'd get it sewn up. Shopping didn't exist for me as I hated going to malls, stores and hated being around people period.

The nightmares aren't all that bad. They are temporary. I've had a few really great dreams as well.

I wish I still had a picture to show you of me at that weight. No one ever seems to believe me about that anymore and only really my family knows about it. I threw all those out after I lost the weight and said to myself Im never going back there again. I basically lost it over 6 months the year I turned 21 by changing my diet (basically cutting calories) and walking/jogging around my neighborhood for an hour or two a day.

I'll never be the guy I was before but there are times I don't feel sexy. I think that's normal.

For the job - I just need to start meeting the right people. People with similar mindsets to mine.

There is a bad side or a bit of a curse to being "hot" as Im noticing and a few jealous people will always want to try to knock you down a few pegs, to make themselves feel better (my manager at my store). Or they will presume things about you, that you will leave or that you have tons of opportunities and will choose the best paying one. A lot of people are afraid to talk to you, so its hard to make friends, both women and men.

Hey sorry I didn't realise you had replied but glad I found the post

It's brilliant either way that you faced your fears as this is what I'm eager to deal with. I have fears anxieties but also maybe an ego trip of not wanting to do lesser work or menial work that's below me know what I mean?

If that's how you were before which is like me in regards to same clothes and hating shopping then all I can say is OMG!!!! you have done superbly well!!!

thanks the nightmares part was a little concerning to be honest lol

You see that's the thing I find it hard to cut my calories I don't get how I can do it and walking around my home is so boring it really is. did AOS or AM help with these?

I guess that's how hot women may feel at times too but you have a friend here dude!

One statement I heard that changed my life is "walk through your life like a king". Anybody who is successful has this mindset-I know what I want and I'm going to stay on this path and do whatever it takes to achieve it and no one will stop me. I have the same thoughts about work as you do.

Cutting calories is very very hard. No one likes to be deprived. It helped that I made it a life or death decision when i initially went from 265+lbs-160lbs or so. I knew if i continued down the road of not giving a shit what I put in my mouth that i would die. The weight loss on my AOS journey was minimal, maybe about 10-15lbs. I don't weigh myself anymore but am a size S men's now, sometimes XS, Size 28-29 pants. I lost this weight basically keeping busy looking for a job, being outside every possible moment I could be, going to the mall, walking downtown and trying to keep a steady diet of about 2000 calories a day. I would say right now I am maybe 145-150lbs.

And yup, I am definitely feeling like the hot woman who everyone is afraid to talk to, stutters around etc. Strangely enough most of the women who have been attracted to me as of late have been black.

I just had a woman yell out "HANDSOME" at me down a main street in downtown Toronto a week ago. I had some random guy come up to me in a book store the other day ago asking me about some jewellery I was wearing. I am telling you man, this subliminal stuff is crazy!