6G bonanza J & RM vol. 2 (OGSF v3)

[Have at ye]

Day 56/93, OGSF v3

So that dysmorphia has passed fortunately and now I'm feeling pretty good.

Also, the dudes from the opera house just provided us with recordings and midi-extracts of the score which should expedite my preparations greatly. We've been doing pretty well on our own with pianist-bro, but still - that's very nice. I tried to make my own extracts but my note-reading software failed me (as it usually does with more complex scores, lol), so to make ones for myself I'd have to input the whole darn thing manually and I'm *so* not doing that.

People who've not seen me in a while are actually commenting that I've slimmed down visibly. Neat-o!

Funny thing - now OGSF is not making me sleepy, as it used to, but actually wakes me up a bit. I'm also feeling way more energetic in general.

[Have at ye]

Day 57/93, OGSF v3

Things are progressing, I guess. I'm getting wonky sensation in "trauma spots" again, but they're less intense than previously. I'm hoping this is indicative of progress.

Taking a break from singing practice today. I'm gonna study the part using the materials I received instead.

[Have at ye]

Day 58/93, OGSF v3

Had dreams most wonky today. OGSF is doing its thing, but yet again I'm feeling very, very sleepy all the time (which may also be related to the added physical exertion I've been performing recently). Anyway, continuing.

On the 17th, I'll be doing the 'ol switcharoo to OSC + DRS v2, as we've got a week of rehearsals beginning on the 20th. Then it's back to OGSF.

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Day 59/93, OGSF v3

More wonky dreams.

I actually think I overdid singing practice yesterday, lol. Not that my voice got tired, but I got a little bit tired physically and then mentally, and then I started getting nervous and had to sleep it off. Otherwise singing practice is going really well but I could still use some more of that OSC there.

Just got the rehearsal schedule for June - looks like I'll have a lot of free time in the interim anyway for now, which I certainly won't mind.

Honestly, now I'm wondering how to proceed, subliminal-wise, after finishing up OGSF v3.

I have that dance reatreat with dancer-chick(s) in July, so I think I might try out X4A-1400 for a spell there. Then, I dunno. I will probably do several more weeks of OGSF v3 (to make up for the switcharoos) and then, heck - it's either two months of X4A-1400 or two months of OSC. Both options could be good - OSC because I've got rehearsals and then shows August-September-November, X4A because rehearsals and shows means: hot wimmen all around, lol. We'll see. Maybe there'll be some new release that piques my interest in the interim.

I'll be stopping work with that pianist-chick, though. On the lookout for a new one.

EDIT

Also some translation gigs have been coming in. Working on some now, in the process of negotiating another one (the client offered a rather... shitty rate, but I decided I would be willing to accept it on one condition: I'm getting a really, *really* lax deadline, lol).

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Day 60/93, OGSF v3

Oooof, judging by a dream I've had there's some serious stuff now getting worked on. And trouble is, I'm getting a whole mish-mash of emotions - altering between hopelessness, anger, despair and all that.

It's coinciding with a wonky sensation.

Funnily enough, it's not like it overtakes my "entire being", it's more like it's a part of me. But still, this is making normal functioning kinda difficult and frustrating.

I just got news I did not get the part I wanted from the auditions two weeks ago and now I'm a sad boi. I really wanted it, it'd have been great for me.

Otherwise, singing practice is going quite well and I really need to keep myself from practicing too much. Still experiencing quite a bit of frustration due to the conflicting instructions and feedback I'd been getting over the years.

Now, on the other end of the spectrum, I've got to actually remind myself to eat something from time to time because I'm not really experiencing hunger pretty much at all right now. Been focusing on high-protein foodstuffs, avoiding sugars.

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Day 61/93, OGSF v3

Ooof, I'm definitely overdoing singing practice. It's like I've become a little bit frantic, hell-bent on "getting it perfect", lawl. Due to this, f. in. today I've spent like, 3 hours faffing about with "technique" instead of practicing and learning the part I've got to prepare for next week, lol.

Gotta chill out a bit, I think. I've also got very little physical energy left work my EMS workout.

Today, I'm planning to do some clothes shopping, I've been putting this off for weeks (gotta get a new wardrobe due to weight-loss).

Still getting moments of that hopelessness and despair thing. I'm doing a little something to try to counteract it.

Definitely switching to OSC/DRS v2 for the rehearsal period. The way things are now, I'm waaaay to distracted/morose for stage work.

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Day 61/93 - OGSF v3 ON HOLD

OSC + DRS v2 Interlude, Day 1/14

So switched to OSC+DRS v2 this morning. It feels like a good idea, TBH, and the DRS is going to come in *really* handy right now. Still a little frazzled from OGSFing, but calmer and more centered already. When switching "cold turkey" you're gonna get several days of at least passing sleepiness/tiredness at various intervals, which may be a bit random even, but this should stabilize after some time (in my personal experience at least).

Got a sudden lead on a band, the band-leader dude is really hawt for my voice after listening to some samples, we're proceeding and I'll be working on this stuff after the current rehearsal period. Could be good if this pans out, I like the musac and they sound like pros and are advertising a professional, career-oriented attitude.