05-09-2018, 01:01 AM
Something I'm facing more and more: do I need to have other people love me to love myself?
I know I've written it lately, and it's still digging. Like I should write here to receive love; as I have no other outlets (places I can go to feel loved). I feel I'm trying to fill in a long-standing hole. I've done it on 2 other forums over the last 15 years.
I'm going to work now. ......... I tend to close down one area of possible love when my needs are being filled elsewhere. I'm saddened since I've gotten "love" (attention) there, but........ I'm afraid of it. Goes back to my brother, me fearing he'll leave and I'll hurt again. But I hurt anyway. Maybe that's what I'm still grieving.
I know I've written it lately, and it's still digging. Like I should write here to receive love; as I have no other outlets (places I can go to feel loved). I feel I'm trying to fill in a long-standing hole. I've done it on 2 other forums over the last 15 years.
I'm going to work now. ......... I tend to close down one area of possible love when my needs are being filled elsewhere. I'm saddened since I've gotten "love" (attention) there, but........ I'm afraid of it. Goes back to my brother, me fearing he'll leave and I'll hurt again. But I hurt anyway. Maybe that's what I'm still grieving.
I want to be FREE!
