09-02-2018, 05:57 AM
Gonna be cycling back and forth with a and b from now on. Something happened yesterday that made me really realize how misunderstood my own resistance was and how much I wasn't giving myself enough support. There's definitely still some kind of unknown trauma that is outside my conscious awareness. Adult me is ready to move forward, but I guess child me is still stuck in the past. The more I got angry at the resistance tactics, the more it was just me beating up a part of myself that was just scared or hurt. I don't think anything bad happened in my childhood. I just think my sensitive nature made it really difficult for me to cope and I was affected more from my environment.
So tomorrow night I'm hopping back to A. We'll see what happens.
So tomorrow night I'm hopping back to A. We'll see what happens.
INFP