08-11-2018, 09:16 AM
Girl who messaged me on instagram out of the blue has been friendly with me. Back in HS I had a crush on her and I had a chance with her, but because of my fears some other guy jumped in and got her attention. Gonna be meeting up with her one of these days to catch up. Just friends really, unless something more happens. If I'm not into her that way anymore I'm not gonna push it. But it's one of those things where you just have to see each other face to face to still see if there's a connection there.
Another girl I messaged who actually responded on okcupid. She seems chill and down to earth. I'm hoping I can meet up with her in person. I'm not 100% certain but I think I sniped this one. I saw her profile and I felt really attracted to her, but it was also this feeling of connecting with her? Hard to describe unless you've got it before. It was like I was looking at a picture, but at the same time connecting with the actual physical body of her.
B continues to move me forward. Even if I think this is all going to collapse in on me like a blackhole at times. I recognize that's the fear. It's weird how when things improve in my life I get anxiety, like a feeling that it won't last or this is just a temporary string of luck. That feeling is getting smaller and smaller, but it's still there. Every time B pushes me further it makes me more aware of my fears that stop me from allowing good things in my life. I also get closer and closer to just being myself vs trying to do everything right to get a favorable outcome from people. Which was always incredibly exhausting for me.
Another girl I messaged who actually responded on okcupid. She seems chill and down to earth. I'm hoping I can meet up with her in person. I'm not 100% certain but I think I sniped this one. I saw her profile and I felt really attracted to her, but it was also this feeling of connecting with her? Hard to describe unless you've got it before. It was like I was looking at a picture, but at the same time connecting with the actual physical body of her.
B continues to move me forward. Even if I think this is all going to collapse in on me like a blackhole at times. I recognize that's the fear. It's weird how when things improve in my life I get anxiety, like a feeling that it won't last or this is just a temporary string of luck. That feeling is getting smaller and smaller, but it's still there. Every time B pushes me further it makes me more aware of my fears that stop me from allowing good things in my life. I also get closer and closer to just being myself vs trying to do everything right to get a favorable outcome from people. Which was always incredibly exhausting for me.
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