My job is starting to annoy me. Actually this whole routine of waking up tired as hell and dragging myself on a 45 minute commute to work. I don't really feel like being "professional" any more. I don't know how to explain it, but it's like I'm fairly competent at this job but I just don't want to take is seriously. I'm not slacking off or watching YouTube all day or something, I just don't want to get sucked into the urgency and stress a lot of people project at this job. This is my first real office job so half the battle has been figuring out how to not burn myself out.
When I think about how caught up people are in the small microscopic universes they create for themselves vs the vastness of the world I just can't take it seriously. Especially when it comes to jobs. If you're a surgeon or an er doctor, or cop, etc then yeah your job has a sense of urgency. But an order not going through a shipping system? Who cares? Maybe I don't, maybe the guy making profits does. I don't know. I feel so out of place. Still looking somewhere that I click with vs having to force myself into.
This was a rant more than anything. I needed to get this out because I've been feeling the pressure of it these past few days. It's like trying to balance gratitude vs doing what's best for me. Fear vs moving on.
Also completely unrelated, but overweight women. I just don't find them attractive. I don't criticize their character or hold them to a lower standard as a human being. But I always feel like I'm "shallow" for not giving them a chance. Why are guys constantly put down because of a simple preference like not being overweight? I'm willing to accept that maybe there's a possibility I don't find them attractive because of fear based reaction, but really it seems like a stretch.
When I think about how caught up people are in the small microscopic universes they create for themselves vs the vastness of the world I just can't take it seriously. Especially when it comes to jobs. If you're a surgeon or an er doctor, or cop, etc then yeah your job has a sense of urgency. But an order not going through a shipping system? Who cares? Maybe I don't, maybe the guy making profits does. I don't know. I feel so out of place. Still looking somewhere that I click with vs having to force myself into.
This was a rant more than anything. I needed to get this out because I've been feeling the pressure of it these past few days. It's like trying to balance gratitude vs doing what's best for me. Fear vs moving on.
Also completely unrelated, but overweight women. I just don't find them attractive. I don't criticize their character or hold them to a lower standard as a human being. But I always feel like I'm "shallow" for not giving them a chance. Why are guys constantly put down because of a simple preference like not being overweight? I'm willing to accept that maybe there's a possibility I don't find them attractive because of fear based reaction, but really it seems like a stretch.
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