07-26-2018, 02:52 AM
Quick post before work. Basically I've been stressing about dmsi. But then I realized this shouldn't be stressful. Having sex with beautiful women shouldn't be stressful. My whole frame of reference for everything in life is upside down. Not just women, but it's always been with others too. Instead of genuinely enjoying myself most socializing seems like a chore or pushing me past comfort zones. I'm all for pushing comfort zones but it gets to a point where I think to myself, when is this going to be fun for me? Overall I'm just sick of feeling like I have to push and push with almost no reward except knowing I did the thing I feared. But pushing past fear is overrated if it just stays there in the background.
INFP