07-11-2018, 03:02 PM
Dammit, I fell for it again. I think too much about executing and the result is I don't execute because I overthink. And when I overthink it gives my subconscious enough wiggle room to sort of suggest what execution feels like. So basically I've been fighting dmsi the whole the day under the mistaken belief that I was "pushing forward". But the pushing forward was actually exerting control to not execute the script. I'm so burned out with these tactics. I just need to stop focusing so much inwardly. That seems to be the one tactic that still gets me, the obsessive analyzing of what DMSI is doing. It's like a compulsion or need, but I know it's fueled by fear. I just don't know how to stop it. For now I just have to be more mindful of what my mind is doing and not fall into the traps. Easier said than done.
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