06-30-2018, 07:30 AM
Had a dream last night. I only really post about the significant ones. But basically I was in this tall corporate building where I was getting "help" on direction in life. But it was really just people pushing their own agendas and thinking they knew what was best for me. So I screamed, almost threw a desk through a window, and just ran. After I ran I saw my mom who basically said I was overreacting and that I had to go back.
I think this dream represents a long struggle I've had in my life. Where people expect things of me, but I'm grappling with some serious fear. And it's not that I want to stay in the same place, but I just wanted someone to acknowledge what I was going through instead of making me feel like I wasn't pushing myself enough. I think this is where a lot of that "not good enough" feeling comes from. Having dealt with excessive levels of fear all my life and doing my best, but always feeling like I came up short.
When it comes to people's perception of you, they never get the whole picture. And when you're shackled by invisible chains it's hard to convey what exactly is wrong when you yourself can't describe why it is you self sabotage or don't move forward in life. So you've got the block itself towards a happier life as well as the judgements cast upon you by those who don't understand what you deal with.
None of this is a victim mentality. That gets thrown around a lot in today's world. A victim is someone who doesn't want to change their circumstances and wants the world to cater to them. This is basically compassion 101, understanding that not everyone deals with the same stuff and especially not kicking them when they are already down.
I think this dream represents a long struggle I've had in my life. Where people expect things of me, but I'm grappling with some serious fear. And it's not that I want to stay in the same place, but I just wanted someone to acknowledge what I was going through instead of making me feel like I wasn't pushing myself enough. I think this is where a lot of that "not good enough" feeling comes from. Having dealt with excessive levels of fear all my life and doing my best, but always feeling like I came up short.
When it comes to people's perception of you, they never get the whole picture. And when you're shackled by invisible chains it's hard to convey what exactly is wrong when you yourself can't describe why it is you self sabotage or don't move forward in life. So you've got the block itself towards a happier life as well as the judgements cast upon you by those who don't understand what you deal with.
None of this is a victim mentality. That gets thrown around a lot in today's world. A victim is someone who doesn't want to change their circumstances and wants the world to cater to them. This is basically compassion 101, understanding that not everyone deals with the same stuff and especially not kicking them when they are already down.
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