05-10-2018, 06:17 PM
Some old beliefs want to stick around. I'm at a point now where it feels like I'm maintaining this idea of what I want. It's not here yet, but it's coming. But man is it hard to truly believe in the face of everything that your life actually is at the current moment.
I'm starting to think the guys who have success with dmsi come from the background of being semi-successful with women so there isn't such a huge belief gap. But in my case I have to work twice as hard to close that gap and even get to the point where I think women can find me attractive. It's not easy trying to take on the frame of being confident and sexy when a part of you just tends to think you're being a try hard or fake.
Despite my forward momentum these past few days part of me just wants to pack it in and call it quits. It tells me I'm just chasing a fantasy, life is never going to be as good as you're imagining it. We've been down this road before, spinning our wheels and getting nowhere. Thinking improvements are being made, but being stuck in the same old shit.
I've been exhausted these past few days as I really try hard to maintain a positive focus and redirect myself away from my rumination spirals. I'm just really tired of all of it. I get I'm improving and getting closer, but some days it's just really difficult to make it through the day. It's not a tired feeling, like sleepiness, it's more like weariness and disappointment I guess. Like I know life can be so much better than what I'm experiencing right now, but I just don't know how to bridge the gap.
I'm starting to think the guys who have success with dmsi come from the background of being semi-successful with women so there isn't such a huge belief gap. But in my case I have to work twice as hard to close that gap and even get to the point where I think women can find me attractive. It's not easy trying to take on the frame of being confident and sexy when a part of you just tends to think you're being a try hard or fake.
Despite my forward momentum these past few days part of me just wants to pack it in and call it quits. It tells me I'm just chasing a fantasy, life is never going to be as good as you're imagining it. We've been down this road before, spinning our wheels and getting nowhere. Thinking improvements are being made, but being stuck in the same old shit.
I've been exhausted these past few days as I really try hard to maintain a positive focus and redirect myself away from my rumination spirals. I'm just really tired of all of it. I get I'm improving and getting closer, but some days it's just really difficult to make it through the day. It's not a tired feeling, like sleepiness, it's more like weariness and disappointment I guess. Like I know life can be so much better than what I'm experiencing right now, but I just don't know how to bridge the gap.
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