04-28-2018, 09:16 AM
Feels like I went through hell and back. But I'm learning important lessons. There's no doubt a great deal of healing I still need to work on, but I'm getting better with not getting sucked into it. My focus is now on identification and releasing of negative emotions and thoughts. It's not just mindless pushing forward and hoping for the best. It's identifying the blocks within me and choosing to no longer accept them.
This whole theme of being unlovable or worthless is my choice if I choose not to let go of it. Nobody will change this mindset except me. No amount of external love or validation will magically fix me. If I want to be better I have to make that choice.
All this suffering, it's taught me a valuable lesson. I feel like I've been through the lowest of lows a human can experience on an emotional level and it's taught me not to be afraid of it. To be open to it and understand it's part of being human, but at the same time I don't need to be a slave to it. Emotional upsets and events can happen at any given time, but I always have control with how I respond to those events. In a way it's a form of control to believe you don't have control. That's just another belief system that you can take on with regards to the ups and downs of life.
This whole theme of being unlovable or worthless is my choice if I choose not to let go of it. Nobody will change this mindset except me. No amount of external love or validation will magically fix me. If I want to be better I have to make that choice.
All this suffering, it's taught me a valuable lesson. I feel like I've been through the lowest of lows a human can experience on an emotional level and it's taught me not to be afraid of it. To be open to it and understand it's part of being human, but at the same time I don't need to be a slave to it. Emotional upsets and events can happen at any given time, but I always have control with how I respond to those events. In a way it's a form of control to believe you don't have control. That's just another belief system that you can take on with regards to the ups and downs of life.
INFP