03-17-2018, 08:55 AM
Found myself starting to make a cup of hot cocoa. Not the same amount of caffeine as coffee, but it's still caffeine. Switched to an herbal tea instead.
This is hard. I thought it would be easy, but it's not. Some part of me is afraid of moving forward while being simultaneously miserable in the current situation. And I've tried communicating, I've tried compromising, I've tried digging for those limiting beliefs, but no luck. I constantly think I've figured out how to get both of these sides of me on board, but I honestly think it's just me thinking I do. So like I said from here on out it's just going to be me pushing myself as far as I can go and to stop holding myself back. Ideally both my conscious and subconscious would be on board, but I've exhausted myself trying to figure this out and instead I just have to dedicate that mental energy towards focusing on what I want out of life and how to get there. All the while avoiding the procrastination and self defeating habits that keep me in my current situation I'm unhappy with.
This is hard. I thought it would be easy, but it's not. Some part of me is afraid of moving forward while being simultaneously miserable in the current situation. And I've tried communicating, I've tried compromising, I've tried digging for those limiting beliefs, but no luck. I constantly think I've figured out how to get both of these sides of me on board, but I honestly think it's just me thinking I do. So like I said from here on out it's just going to be me pushing myself as far as I can go and to stop holding myself back. Ideally both my conscious and subconscious would be on board, but I've exhausted myself trying to figure this out and instead I just have to dedicate that mental energy towards focusing on what I want out of life and how to get there. All the while avoiding the procrastination and self defeating habits that keep me in my current situation I'm unhappy with.
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