02-19-2018, 02:59 PM
Got hit with a ton of fear last night, but I face it in my dream. It felt like some kind of creature was going to emerge from the shadows and try to kill me. I actually used to have a fear of closets when I was a kid, probably not too uncommon. But my imagination would go crazy with all the types of terrifying things that could be living in there just waiting to grab me when I wasn't looking. But that's besides the point. After I faced all that fear I got hit with a ton of sex dreams. It was pretty awesome. They were really vivid, like a lucid dream. Normally my dreams are hazy or fuzzy, but there was so much clarity in these.
Unfortunately I woke up and made the mistake of expecting too much from all this. I've noticed that in general when my results are good it's when I'm not paying attention and not trying to hold onto either the postiive or the negative. I just let myself be and whatever happens happens. It seems like a fear thing, getting good results and wanting it to keep going, being afraid of falling back. As a consequence the fear blocks DMSI from doing what it needs to do. So if old emotions pop up and I don't face them because I want to hold onto that higher positive state, I lose a chance to let go of what holds me back.
But definitely feeling the strength the closer we get to 3.2. Super excited to run this. Feels like my whole frequency is changing with regards to reality, just on a totally different wavelength than what I was.
Unfortunately I woke up and made the mistake of expecting too much from all this. I've noticed that in general when my results are good it's when I'm not paying attention and not trying to hold onto either the postiive or the negative. I just let myself be and whatever happens happens. It seems like a fear thing, getting good results and wanting it to keep going, being afraid of falling back. As a consequence the fear blocks DMSI from doing what it needs to do. So if old emotions pop up and I don't face them because I want to hold onto that higher positive state, I lose a chance to let go of what holds me back.
But definitely feeling the strength the closer we get to 3.2. Super excited to run this. Feels like my whole frequency is changing with regards to reality, just on a totally different wavelength than what I was.
INFP