02-14-2018, 05:54 PM
I think I'm getting the effects of ARA and it's been feeling good. I'm noticing I have the ability to relax more now. Before I'd get anxiety every time I'd relax because that meant I wasn't doing something that I should have been doing. But of course that caused more anxiety which caused more procrastinating because I was anxious.
So I got home from work today a little tired. I just chilled in my bed for about 15 minutes relaxing my body and releasing the tension from the day. Not worrying about wasting time doing that and losing valuable time to work on my music. I felt good once I was more centered. Then I started working on some music. And that went well too. I no longer had the thoughts like "I have to finish this today" or "1 hour isn't enough time so why bother starting?" It's amazing what you can get done when you're not worrying about getting it done in one sitting. Prior to this I felt like I wasn't doing a good enough job if I didn't make massive progress on a song. Overall it feels like I sit down to do the work and if it doesn't go well that's alright because anything is progress and a learning experience.
It seems to also be working on my anxiety and fears based around never getting my music to the level I want it to be. I have this calm confidence that I'll get there instead and as long as I dedicate myself it'll happen. Before this I was always rushing to finish, anxious about making every song amazing, just feeling like time was running out and I needed to push harder and harder. Well a lot of that killed the enjoyment for me. Consequently I kept digging myself further and further into the limiting belief that making music was hard and I had to suffer for it.
It seems like in the past when I'd get overwhelmed at all the stuff I had to learn and get better at, my mind would just throw everything out. Instead of prioritizing and breaking things down into manageable chunks I'd just panic and quit. Never even starting. If DMSI 3.2 nails my procrastination I'll be super happy.
So I got home from work today a little tired. I just chilled in my bed for about 15 minutes relaxing my body and releasing the tension from the day. Not worrying about wasting time doing that and losing valuable time to work on my music. I felt good once I was more centered. Then I started working on some music. And that went well too. I no longer had the thoughts like "I have to finish this today" or "1 hour isn't enough time so why bother starting?" It's amazing what you can get done when you're not worrying about getting it done in one sitting. Prior to this I felt like I wasn't doing a good enough job if I didn't make massive progress on a song. Overall it feels like I sit down to do the work and if it doesn't go well that's alright because anything is progress and a learning experience.
It seems to also be working on my anxiety and fears based around never getting my music to the level I want it to be. I have this calm confidence that I'll get there instead and as long as I dedicate myself it'll happen. Before this I was always rushing to finish, anxious about making every song amazing, just feeling like time was running out and I needed to push harder and harder. Well a lot of that killed the enjoyment for me. Consequently I kept digging myself further and further into the limiting belief that making music was hard and I had to suffer for it.
It seems like in the past when I'd get overwhelmed at all the stuff I had to learn and get better at, my mind would just throw everything out. Instead of prioritizing and breaking things down into manageable chunks I'd just panic and quit. Never even starting. If DMSI 3.2 nails my procrastination I'll be super happy.
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