03-31-2017, 06:43 AM
Day 29
DMSI is getting more and more interesting each day. I'm not kidding.
A small prelude. Whenever I visit Red Pill forums of any sort I get into this "all women are shallow and sex driven fiends" kind of mindset. It helps me deal with all evil b**ches (like my ex) and rejection. I exaggerate of course but I think you get my point. It doesn't happen often, last time it must have been half a year ago, but it happens. And whenever I absorb this sort of information there were always 3 women I would think about as an contr-argument for Red Pill's claims. First one is my mother (happily married with my father, the most loving and caring woman I know), second one is my sweetheart I wasted 3 years being hopelessly in love with (I still have an essay to write on her, I promised and I forgot!). And there is a third one, I don't think I've ever mentioned her on length here.
She wrote to me today. Well, I wrote to her earlier this week, we exchanged couple sentences and that was it but she wrote to me again today. And this time we talked much longer. She was complaining (she's not suicidal, but quite depressed it seems) about her life, school and her boyfriend. I wrote her (quite sincerely) that she is kind, pretty and clever girl and that she should be picking guys and not be depressed over her. I personally saw her crying over argument with her former boyfriend so I knew what I was talking about. Anyhow after that something changed. She became more open, sincere. From this depressed aptitude she turned into optimistic and almost cheerful.
The weirdest thing (and the reason I'm writing this) was she asked if "we" (not "do you" but "do we", it's more subtle in my tongue) are going to the music festival this summer. For some reason (of all the people) she asked me (with whom she had little contact since she moved away over a year ago) if I want her to go with me there. And only later did she say that if her boyfriend is not going she's going with me. WTF
Like I mentioned she moved away some time now and she lives on the other side of the country. I asked her if she would like to come back and she said yes but next year at earliest.
She is extremely pretty in all aspects, she's smart, kind and one of the nicest people I've ever met. The only reason I've never fallen in love with her was because I was in love with my sweetheart back then (only my ex would truly heal me of that one) and because I would see how loving and faithful she was towards her boyfriend (who was mistreating her, didn't trust her despite all her traits and was stupid ass anyway). I don't know what's up with her. Is it Long Distance Sniper or something?
DMSI is getting more and more interesting each day. I'm not kidding.
A small prelude. Whenever I visit Red Pill forums of any sort I get into this "all women are shallow and sex driven fiends" kind of mindset. It helps me deal with all evil b**ches (like my ex) and rejection. I exaggerate of course but I think you get my point. It doesn't happen often, last time it must have been half a year ago, but it happens. And whenever I absorb this sort of information there were always 3 women I would think about as an contr-argument for Red Pill's claims. First one is my mother (happily married with my father, the most loving and caring woman I know), second one is my sweetheart I wasted 3 years being hopelessly in love with (I still have an essay to write on her, I promised and I forgot!). And there is a third one, I don't think I've ever mentioned her on length here.
She wrote to me today. Well, I wrote to her earlier this week, we exchanged couple sentences and that was it but she wrote to me again today. And this time we talked much longer. She was complaining (she's not suicidal, but quite depressed it seems) about her life, school and her boyfriend. I wrote her (quite sincerely) that she is kind, pretty and clever girl and that she should be picking guys and not be depressed over her. I personally saw her crying over argument with her former boyfriend so I knew what I was talking about. Anyhow after that something changed. She became more open, sincere. From this depressed aptitude she turned into optimistic and almost cheerful.
The weirdest thing (and the reason I'm writing this) was she asked if "we" (not "do you" but "do we", it's more subtle in my tongue) are going to the music festival this summer. For some reason (of all the people) she asked me (with whom she had little contact since she moved away over a year ago) if I want her to go with me there. And only later did she say that if her boyfriend is not going she's going with me. WTF
Like I mentioned she moved away some time now and she lives on the other side of the country. I asked her if she would like to come back and she said yes but next year at earliest.
She is extremely pretty in all aspects, she's smart, kind and one of the nicest people I've ever met. The only reason I've never fallen in love with her was because I was in love with my sweetheart back then (only my ex would truly heal me of that one) and because I would see how loving and faithful she was towards her boyfriend (who was mistreating her, didn't trust her despite all her traits and was stupid ass anyway). I don't know what's up with her. Is it Long Distance Sniper or something?
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4