reading the book of pook and I am currently mindblown, its aas if arriving at manhood, the contrast with friends and overal "chasing guys" is massive. I feel so incredibly confident but notice there is still work to do in several areas. had some slight anxiety coming up around girls as they were giggling, submissive eyes and longer eye contact at the supermarket. Writing this down stirrs up some more tension
Also, this nice guy crap in my psyche is almost an auto-pilot habit. There are glimpses of shifts and I coin it up unfamiliarity of an substitute, like, growing up an certain way, being conditioned and social bullshit and parental bullshit, but not having another option but becoming this jackass, which seem to shine more through stage 5, accompanied with anger and just an pessimistic view on people. Its not fucntional and lead to behaviour default and crashing eventually.
Lots is pretty much obvious and the leap will be made. the programming overwriting the old.
pretty much calm now, floating, breakthrough time.
Also, this nice guy crap in my psyche is almost an auto-pilot habit. There are glimpses of shifts and I coin it up unfamiliarity of an substitute, like, growing up an certain way, being conditioned and social bullshit and parental bullshit, but not having another option but becoming this jackass, which seem to shine more through stage 5, accompanied with anger and just an pessimistic view on people. Its not fucntional and lead to behaviour default and crashing eventually.
Lots is pretty much obvious and the leap will be made. the programming overwriting the old.
pretty much calm now, floating, breakthrough time.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus