stage 4 day 1 conjures up some resitance already but my eye contact seems to get different, almost olike I can pick girls I like/feel connection with yet more neediness is destroyed. The eye contact is piercing, almost dead like but seductive. The secoind thoughts around it are destroyed further and stage 4 is already a beast.
Im more annoyed with social rules and internal blocks. My patience seems to increase, more of an plished anger. It is there but it doesnt set through, and translates it differently.
Insight in alpha language, by keeping it short, yet full back up doubtless statements, it some very strong stuff and recognize this now from the past wioth some high function covering people, like ceo's and the sorts.
Im confused in an way, internal changes arfe happening again, and what I was struggling on stage 3, stage 4 does deal with already.
Powerfull friend manifestation is happening as well as SM lead in. women seek more eye contact already and it feels natural yet weird in ways.
Giving an shit has been reduced, I'm also looking different and am more stern in my own view towards myself, as in "this is it, deal with it" more serious maybe. My value towards myself has risen again, and : losing"people is of no concern. There is still anxiety under the surface, perhaps some trauma that returns multiple times, abandonment issues perhaps causing needy behaviour.
getting still irritated by people trying to put me down, through name calling and shit, even if these are shittests, yet know it doesnt matter at the same time, as I dont seek validation from them. Not going to change people in that, yet not becoming an doormat or some sorts. Shift in presence/mind/holding yourself and attitude towards the world.
Independence gets an massive boost. all comes together nicely in terms of interaction with the world, with the mind and physical. Also the independence and disagreeing plays an big part currently, as in, taking more responsibility and asking myself, do i want it. Guess its stage 4 as it is clearly the subliminals influence.
Im more annoyed with social rules and internal blocks. My patience seems to increase, more of an plished anger. It is there but it doesnt set through, and translates it differently.
Insight in alpha language, by keeping it short, yet full back up doubtless statements, it some very strong stuff and recognize this now from the past wioth some high function covering people, like ceo's and the sorts.
Im confused in an way, internal changes arfe happening again, and what I was struggling on stage 3, stage 4 does deal with already.
Powerfull friend manifestation is happening as well as SM lead in. women seek more eye contact already and it feels natural yet weird in ways.
Giving an shit has been reduced, I'm also looking different and am more stern in my own view towards myself, as in "this is it, deal with it" more serious maybe. My value towards myself has risen again, and : losing"people is of no concern. There is still anxiety under the surface, perhaps some trauma that returns multiple times, abandonment issues perhaps causing needy behaviour.
getting still irritated by people trying to put me down, through name calling and shit, even if these are shittests, yet know it doesnt matter at the same time, as I dont seek validation from them. Not going to change people in that, yet not becoming an doormat or some sorts. Shift in presence/mind/holding yourself and attitude towards the world.
Independence gets an massive boost. all comes together nicely in terms of interaction with the world, with the mind and physical. Also the independence and disagreeing plays an big part currently, as in, taking more responsibility and asking myself, do i want it. Guess its stage 4 as it is clearly the subliminals influence.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus