Shifting between old feelings and confidence, not giving an fuck. ( day 28 ) Also, more release of negativity causing me to not wanting to write about some stuff, not out of supression but rather it feels negative and somewhat irrelevant. It is there but it feels old to write it out, like I am fed up with it.
Went full beta at the Phone yesterday, the thought makes me kind of resentfull. Need to set boundaries and staying true to myself without giving an shit about anyone in that matter but setting my frame.
The theme for the last few days on this stage seem to be mostly more garbage coming up and more negative feelings.
Also awareness of seeking external validation still affecting my mood, yet at the same time feeling awesome, my own, yet not lonely. It sets me back on track with an higher level of sense towards approaching and being in the world and amongst people.
Internal validation and self validation.
Listening the art of seduction audiobook now and realizing I don't need to have to do anything, no givign away of power and being more observant about it, letting my mind keep going on instead of being drawn into words. makes me very confident. Lots of thoughts surfacing and questions I am currently working out on it, such as facing the terrifying. Also, thinking about how to present myself, makes me think about pua and dhv. Its aswell an way of boundaries and applying logic, instead of setting one up for being seducted.
strong worry reduction and fairly calm and zen. what comes up doesnt get to me now, i rather accept it in an way. other blocks are dissolved and it was again different then I initally thought it would be. confident. Total removal of any layer moments resulting in being purely radiant, eyes are calmer displaying and have an certain different quality to them.
welcoming challenges.
In some ways I feel that this stage is subtle yet clearly working in my core.
Went full beta at the Phone yesterday, the thought makes me kind of resentfull. Need to set boundaries and staying true to myself without giving an shit about anyone in that matter but setting my frame.
The theme for the last few days on this stage seem to be mostly more garbage coming up and more negative feelings.
Also awareness of seeking external validation still affecting my mood, yet at the same time feeling awesome, my own, yet not lonely. It sets me back on track with an higher level of sense towards approaching and being in the world and amongst people.
Internal validation and self validation.
Listening the art of seduction audiobook now and realizing I don't need to have to do anything, no givign away of power and being more observant about it, letting my mind keep going on instead of being drawn into words. makes me very confident. Lots of thoughts surfacing and questions I am currently working out on it, such as facing the terrifying. Also, thinking about how to present myself, makes me think about pua and dhv. Its aswell an way of boundaries and applying logic, instead of setting one up for being seducted.
strong worry reduction and fairly calm and zen. what comes up doesnt get to me now, i rather accept it in an way. other blocks are dissolved and it was again different then I initally thought it would be. confident. Total removal of any layer moments resulting in being purely radiant, eyes are calmer displaying and have an certain different quality to them.
welcoming challenges.
In some ways I feel that this stage is subtle yet clearly working in my core.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus