The sub works on some deep core issues and I'm getting aware about some limited beliefs. I think my aura is projecting more as people seem to generally be more at ease around me, and thus open up more easy and are more chatty in general.
Starting the day productive seeps through the rest of the day and how it develops. When I'm working on setting up business, income, read, and am general more alive and active, instead of wasting the morning, it seeps over.
Core issues involve women aswell, and it sheds some light as to how subconsciously there was some gap between, which hinders bonding to happen at times.
Im also less in the mood to write on the forums. Im seeing people differently and how Im not like them, how I dont want to end up, its an pretty big contrast, reading people more, how they dress, how they carry themselves. Its just so fake. Some are closed off, others are clearly carrying some heavy burden and litterally have an slave posture to name some. Its as if I can look right through it. Also my own ways of interacting on an more subtle way get more clear to myself, how I greet, talk, calibration and other unname-able manners.
Currentl;y having more shit coming up making me somewhat stuck but this also will pass. Im entering flow states more and more, aswell as being fully boundless and present. Its like being sleazy and painting some state is noticed, while being authentic is limitless. yet, taking on an sort of persona like an market model ( like the whole zyzz thing, which that guy also explained ) gives some huge space to do so. Might be the subs breakthrough or an crossing over of some sort, but it makes sense.
I enjoy music aswell more, aswell as life in general. Just now my mind and body is tense and cloudy, anxious, which is a bit funny actually. Just an matter of time before I see how to flip this, as this stuff is mostly right in front of me. Also I experience re-occuring patterns only to realize I'm already over it, the final let go of it all. Its an attack from all angles.
Work has an stronger priority. Clicked when I was talking with an girl when she told she worked from age 13. Somehow this gives some value in my eyes. I love it.
I can only imagine how strong SM will work for me. yet, AM is now as it should be. No excuses, the time is NOW. All is NOW. Approach, chatting, talking, doing and working. Im growing more and more an dislike of being on the computer and internet aswell as wasting time on social media and realize most people are actually trapped in some sort of prison instead of working with it, social media works them and controls them. Im way more sure in my abilities and capabilities aswell.
Currently on day5 of my streak and interacting with people puts me back on track. I realize that interaction is vital for me. Im expanding my horizon instead of being focussed on an idea, Im rather exploring the whole spectrum now, almost indiscriminating and just flow. Porn is an isolating self fulfilling prophecy for me, and by being sexual I can bring this out. Instead I talk to and with people, it has only benefits although the urges can be very strong at times like this morning.
the "i know" communication through eye contact is incredibly powerfull. have tested it in the mirror and my whole presence changes to seduction that way.
When Im working with dogs Im taking the role naturally of being an pack leader, like I know what I need to do, and dominate and command through state and am an bit cold like. Wondered more then once whats happening then.
Also dropping all addictions instantly gives an huge sense of freedom and not giving an fuck. Like its similar to the outciome independence which im experiencing way more. Like when going to the store and forgetting something its cool. Interact do what ever teh fuck you want to do, it doesnt matter. rejection doesnt exist.
Currently reading John alaxanders alpha male book and the part of "what do women want"makes massive sense. Its mindblowing yet IDGAF. Its as if something is clicking right now, im totally buzzing right now. Breakthrough and even going upwards more now. Like being real and shit. Doing your own thing, being sexual in presence, not words or whatever. Just playfully around. I dont care. Im on an high now, yet dont get addicted to only good feelings as the other side of the coin will catch up aswell.Getting aware of the patterns of my subconscious, the repeating stuff, the small limiting things. This is boundless and limitless. Outcome independence. Not caring what happens. Euphoric. I dont need approval or validation. I validate myself.
Still writing this for myself, an tracking journal in an way only when I feel like writing.
Starting the day productive seeps through the rest of the day and how it develops. When I'm working on setting up business, income, read, and am general more alive and active, instead of wasting the morning, it seeps over.
Core issues involve women aswell, and it sheds some light as to how subconsciously there was some gap between, which hinders bonding to happen at times.
Im also less in the mood to write on the forums. Im seeing people differently and how Im not like them, how I dont want to end up, its an pretty big contrast, reading people more, how they dress, how they carry themselves. Its just so fake. Some are closed off, others are clearly carrying some heavy burden and litterally have an slave posture to name some. Its as if I can look right through it. Also my own ways of interacting on an more subtle way get more clear to myself, how I greet, talk, calibration and other unname-able manners.
Currentl;y having more shit coming up making me somewhat stuck but this also will pass. Im entering flow states more and more, aswell as being fully boundless and present. Its like being sleazy and painting some state is noticed, while being authentic is limitless. yet, taking on an sort of persona like an market model ( like the whole zyzz thing, which that guy also explained ) gives some huge space to do so. Might be the subs breakthrough or an crossing over of some sort, but it makes sense.
I enjoy music aswell more, aswell as life in general. Just now my mind and body is tense and cloudy, anxious, which is a bit funny actually. Just an matter of time before I see how to flip this, as this stuff is mostly right in front of me. Also I experience re-occuring patterns only to realize I'm already over it, the final let go of it all. Its an attack from all angles.
Work has an stronger priority. Clicked when I was talking with an girl when she told she worked from age 13. Somehow this gives some value in my eyes. I love it.
I can only imagine how strong SM will work for me. yet, AM is now as it should be. No excuses, the time is NOW. All is NOW. Approach, chatting, talking, doing and working. Im growing more and more an dislike of being on the computer and internet aswell as wasting time on social media and realize most people are actually trapped in some sort of prison instead of working with it, social media works them and controls them. Im way more sure in my abilities and capabilities aswell.
Currently on day5 of my streak and interacting with people puts me back on track. I realize that interaction is vital for me. Im expanding my horizon instead of being focussed on an idea, Im rather exploring the whole spectrum now, almost indiscriminating and just flow. Porn is an isolating self fulfilling prophecy for me, and by being sexual I can bring this out. Instead I talk to and with people, it has only benefits although the urges can be very strong at times like this morning.
the "i know" communication through eye contact is incredibly powerfull. have tested it in the mirror and my whole presence changes to seduction that way.
When Im working with dogs Im taking the role naturally of being an pack leader, like I know what I need to do, and dominate and command through state and am an bit cold like. Wondered more then once whats happening then.
Also dropping all addictions instantly gives an huge sense of freedom and not giving an fuck. Like its similar to the outciome independence which im experiencing way more. Like when going to the store and forgetting something its cool. Interact do what ever teh fuck you want to do, it doesnt matter. rejection doesnt exist.
Currently reading John alaxanders alpha male book and the part of "what do women want"makes massive sense. Its mindblowing yet IDGAF. Its as if something is clicking right now, im totally buzzing right now. Breakthrough and even going upwards more now. Like being real and shit. Doing your own thing, being sexual in presence, not words or whatever. Just playfully around. I dont care. Im on an high now, yet dont get addicted to only good feelings as the other side of the coin will catch up aswell.Getting aware of the patterns of my subconscious, the repeating stuff, the small limiting things. This is boundless and limitless. Outcome independence. Not caring what happens. Euphoric. I dont need approval or validation. I validate myself.
Still writing this for myself, an tracking journal in an way only when I feel like writing.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus