stage 1 day 30
My attitude seems to develop even further in calling out crap. Im growing more self-validating, coming from inside, making me feel unstoppable, instead of taking it external. Also, I seem to care to much at times. All is experience basically, women pissing me off, women being attracted to me. Having thoughts and memories of people bullshitting me and grow increasingly intolerant to that.
had some strong anxiety responses and symptoms yesterday. Its like an mindfuck when it happens. basically letting it play out. Had some nice chat with an older women, she was pretty chatty and flirty. Noticed when walking through the store I begun to walk slower and it was all fine. It was great, momentum.
Another girl was short tempered. Could be an bad day or whatever. It didnt really got to me. Dont giving an shit, dont disrespect me.
The content experience seems to become more and more solid, like, my issues being not so present or even present at all. Just being open and present and free, enjoying life.
Somehow when an girl gets all bitchy it turns me on. Something deeper, more real or something.
Socializing goes realy smooth, big reduction in being self conscious and I dont want it any other way. It doesnt matter if you make "mistakes", its an false mindset. and shows an lack of self validation and backing up own words. Not to prove anyone anything, just having fun.
Looking into supplements such as testboosters and fatburning. Reduced carbs pretty much and am reviewing my eating habits. Like, in the morning/breakfast for example. Options and change.
Self development and skills in many fields. Living.
Dont engage in the logical part of women, instaed be playfull and spike. Its just plain awkward when 2 people meet and there is an gap in between. An reviewing current social life and want to move away more, being around more valuable people, lesser GSF and more of an purpose.
People in general dont seem to get the whole passive income streams kind of thing, its not like having this and then everything halts. It gives room for more development. It shows how people are trapped in their programming and operate on societal programming and routines thats driled in them. I Always broke away from this and now im having an bigger sense of purpose, what I want and what not. Still going for field experience and might search for an mentor. Yet on MY terms.
Self-development and skill development as well as interest are still high.
My attitude seems to develop even further in calling out crap. Im growing more self-validating, coming from inside, making me feel unstoppable, instead of taking it external. Also, I seem to care to much at times. All is experience basically, women pissing me off, women being attracted to me. Having thoughts and memories of people bullshitting me and grow increasingly intolerant to that.
had some strong anxiety responses and symptoms yesterday. Its like an mindfuck when it happens. basically letting it play out. Had some nice chat with an older women, she was pretty chatty and flirty. Noticed when walking through the store I begun to walk slower and it was all fine. It was great, momentum.
Another girl was short tempered. Could be an bad day or whatever. It didnt really got to me. Dont giving an shit, dont disrespect me.
The content experience seems to become more and more solid, like, my issues being not so present or even present at all. Just being open and present and free, enjoying life.
Somehow when an girl gets all bitchy it turns me on. Something deeper, more real or something.
Socializing goes realy smooth, big reduction in being self conscious and I dont want it any other way. It doesnt matter if you make "mistakes", its an false mindset. and shows an lack of self validation and backing up own words. Not to prove anyone anything, just having fun.
Looking into supplements such as testboosters and fatburning. Reduced carbs pretty much and am reviewing my eating habits. Like, in the morning/breakfast for example. Options and change.
Self development and skills in many fields. Living.
Dont engage in the logical part of women, instaed be playfull and spike. Its just plain awkward when 2 people meet and there is an gap in between. An reviewing current social life and want to move away more, being around more valuable people, lesser GSF and more of an purpose.
People in general dont seem to get the whole passive income streams kind of thing, its not like having this and then everything halts. It gives room for more development. It shows how people are trapped in their programming and operate on societal programming and routines thats driled in them. I Always broke away from this and now im having an bigger sense of purpose, what I want and what not. Still going for field experience and might search for an mentor. Yet on MY terms.
Self-development and skill development as well as interest are still high.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus