03-06-2016, 03:46 AM
day 11 stage 1
Im feeling more zen and calm right now, some clearing is happening.
Last few days doubts popped up, anxieties arose, insecurities and old patterns surfaced. I dont care. It feels huge now Im writing this. The zen attitude is growing and gets stronger, like some water level building up to eventually break through.
My mind seems still to gravitate towards business stuff. yesterday the ball was roling, how employees are important to keep business running, inovation, models, to take the lead. It was as if my mind downloaded business structure knowledge, which makes sense in several AM6.0 qualities and the person Im becoming, yet the sub is way more complex.
Watched the wolf of wallstreet yesterday. Caused an shift in mindset and indentified strongly with it, some sort of recognition and indentification.
Im growing more attractive and feel really great at this very moment, being still partly at some Crossroads but feel not really the need to journal anymore, might be partly fear as it clashes and conflicts and disrupts the momentum. having out of the blue annoyance and anger pop up. Last time with friends my kind of humor has shifted, makes me an bit sad now but whatever. Like what they like I no longer like or am indifferent and aswell dont shun from showing disinterest, partly or an part of me is still clinging to the safety of not offending ( abandon issues? ) with friends. Shutted down yet annoyed pretty much when they showed all this needy stuff regarding women.
having more motivation and longer duration in fitness. less aware of my body, can keep going longer,
Im feeling like an whole different person, more mature yet some sadness beneath the surface. Lots is happening. Waking up more sharp, early, and clear then ever before.
Reading BlackDragons Alpha male 2.0; the unchained man book.
keep feeling that it is finally happening. Breakthrough. Confidence rising.
i want to break away from thinking about this, writing. Just an urge and pull towards outside.
Im feeling more zen and calm right now, some clearing is happening.
Last few days doubts popped up, anxieties arose, insecurities and old patterns surfaced. I dont care. It feels huge now Im writing this. The zen attitude is growing and gets stronger, like some water level building up to eventually break through.
My mind seems still to gravitate towards business stuff. yesterday the ball was roling, how employees are important to keep business running, inovation, models, to take the lead. It was as if my mind downloaded business structure knowledge, which makes sense in several AM6.0 qualities and the person Im becoming, yet the sub is way more complex.
Watched the wolf of wallstreet yesterday. Caused an shift in mindset and indentified strongly with it, some sort of recognition and indentification.
Im growing more attractive and feel really great at this very moment, being still partly at some Crossroads but feel not really the need to journal anymore, might be partly fear as it clashes and conflicts and disrupts the momentum. having out of the blue annoyance and anger pop up. Last time with friends my kind of humor has shifted, makes me an bit sad now but whatever. Like what they like I no longer like or am indifferent and aswell dont shun from showing disinterest, partly or an part of me is still clinging to the safety of not offending ( abandon issues? ) with friends. Shutted down yet annoyed pretty much when they showed all this needy stuff regarding women.
having more motivation and longer duration in fitness. less aware of my body, can keep going longer,
Im feeling like an whole different person, more mature yet some sadness beneath the surface. Lots is happening. Waking up more sharp, early, and clear then ever before.
Reading BlackDragons Alpha male 2.0; the unchained man book.
keep feeling that it is finally happening. Breakthrough. Confidence rising.
i want to break away from thinking about this, writing. Just an urge and pull towards outside.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus