01-02-2015, 04:30 PM
I slept very little, maybe 3 hours. I feel fine, in terms of being awake. But I've become a bit of an emotional pussy; a bit wobbly and unstable starting in the late afternoon.
I took the train ride home, leaving at 8am, I got home at 4:30pm. I listened to 2 hours of the AM refresher on that ride. Since then, I vegged out a bit, then I got a haircut, and that's where I noticed I was holding weak eye contact with MYSELF in the mirror. I got a case for my new iPhone (oh yeah, I have one now; first smartphone, meaning a possibility of distractions).
Then I headed over to the grocery store, where I began feeling like crap. There was a girl with her two friends. She turned and saw me, and then gave an eager/nervous smile and giggle. That made me feel something that I haven't felt in a long while.. feminine energy! But that certain flavor is rare to me, like the girl I kissed back in August.
I wussed out and didn't talk to her; I'm a bit disappointed with myself. Gonna keep running the AM5 refresher until I get my hands on AM6.
I took the train ride home, leaving at 8am, I got home at 4:30pm. I listened to 2 hours of the AM refresher on that ride. Since then, I vegged out a bit, then I got a haircut, and that's where I noticed I was holding weak eye contact with MYSELF in the mirror. I got a case for my new iPhone (oh yeah, I have one now; first smartphone, meaning a possibility of distractions).
Then I headed over to the grocery store, where I began feeling like crap. There was a girl with her two friends. She turned and saw me, and then gave an eager/nervous smile and giggle. That made me feel something that I haven't felt in a long while.. feminine energy! But that certain flavor is rare to me, like the girl I kissed back in August.
I wussed out and didn't talk to her; I'm a bit disappointed with myself. Gonna keep running the AM5 refresher until I get my hands on AM6.
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