10-29-2014, 08:10 PM
Stage 5, Day 4,
I'm realizing that in regards to social and sexual confidence, even if I'm not getting laid, I'm in the top 10 or even 5% in regards to many areas. Some minor tweaking is required; a breakdown:
- Day Time; I've got NO problem talking to women in day-time social settings; Today I've approached 3 without any problem;
- Night Time; I have a little bit of anxiety about going out alone; I did okay last Saturday, and at least I'm getting experiences, and I'll be going out Friday and Saturday. I can approach some women during the night; and I'm sober (this is a big deal!)
- Sex appeal; I have virtually no anxiety related to going about my day to day life, and interacting with people; for example, I woke up this guy on the bus to make sure he wouldn't sleep past his stop. I'm more allowing of my sexual energy, and I've been successful in my last few approaches.
- Body; I'm likely in the top 10% of body. I have a gym membership and I've been going more often. I've started doing posture exercises and exercises related to having bigger arms and having success.
- Facial appearance; not tooting my own horn (just being realistic), but I consider myself handsome, as in being in the top 10%. This sub have made me handsomer.
- Persistence; this is an area of improvement; I'm likely in the top tier, but this area has improved because of this program;
- Style; another area of work on; some items of clothing work very well with me (especially tight t-shirts, good jeans and my coat/scarf), but those articles are number. The rest are sort of plain and not edgy, in which I wore the same t-shirt 2 years ago.
I just need to keep approaching, perhaps add to my wardrobe, and follow-up properly. Done.
Anyways, like I said, I got the contact info of 3 girls today. I'm do a follow-up tomorrow; not caring to do it right now. I really want to see (i.e. enjoy sex with) two of them in particular.
I went to the gym and devastated my arms in a workout (in a good way). They're the primary area of focus, as I'm rather satisfied with the rest.
A girl of interest in my class was showing more interest than usual. I gave her my card heh. We had a pretty fun conversation one on one, which I wouldn't have been able to get her to do.
Right now, I've stopped caring if women are watching me, or if the sub is 'having an effect' on women around me. I used to (in stage 3) look around the room for pretty girls to check if they were looking at me (they're not). Now, I don't notice, and don't know.
I went to see Fury with a girl I'd been seeing. We caught up no problem (after almost 2 months), and throughout the movie, we were kissing here and there.
She was on her period, so not down to do anything below the belt, so we got as far as kissing, naked from the waist up. Then I got her dressed back up, walked her to her car, and sent her off. We'll settl this another time.
I'm realizing that in regards to social and sexual confidence, even if I'm not getting laid, I'm in the top 10 or even 5% in regards to many areas. Some minor tweaking is required; a breakdown:
- Day Time; I've got NO problem talking to women in day-time social settings; Today I've approached 3 without any problem;
- Night Time; I have a little bit of anxiety about going out alone; I did okay last Saturday, and at least I'm getting experiences, and I'll be going out Friday and Saturday. I can approach some women during the night; and I'm sober (this is a big deal!)
- Sex appeal; I have virtually no anxiety related to going about my day to day life, and interacting with people; for example, I woke up this guy on the bus to make sure he wouldn't sleep past his stop. I'm more allowing of my sexual energy, and I've been successful in my last few approaches.
- Body; I'm likely in the top 10% of body. I have a gym membership and I've been going more often. I've started doing posture exercises and exercises related to having bigger arms and having success.
- Facial appearance; not tooting my own horn (just being realistic), but I consider myself handsome, as in being in the top 10%. This sub have made me handsomer.
- Persistence; this is an area of improvement; I'm likely in the top tier, but this area has improved because of this program;
- Style; another area of work on; some items of clothing work very well with me (especially tight t-shirts, good jeans and my coat/scarf), but those articles are number. The rest are sort of plain and not edgy, in which I wore the same t-shirt 2 years ago.
I just need to keep approaching, perhaps add to my wardrobe, and follow-up properly. Done.
Anyways, like I said, I got the contact info of 3 girls today. I'm do a follow-up tomorrow; not caring to do it right now. I really want to see (i.e. enjoy sex with) two of them in particular.
I went to the gym and devastated my arms in a workout (in a good way). They're the primary area of focus, as I'm rather satisfied with the rest.
A girl of interest in my class was showing more interest than usual. I gave her my card heh. We had a pretty fun conversation one on one, which I wouldn't have been able to get her to do.
Right now, I've stopped caring if women are watching me, or if the sub is 'having an effect' on women around me. I used to (in stage 3) look around the room for pretty girls to check if they were looking at me (they're not). Now, I don't notice, and don't know.
I went to see Fury with a girl I'd been seeing. We caught up no problem (after almost 2 months), and throughout the movie, we were kissing here and there.
She was on her period, so not down to do anything below the belt, so we got as far as kissing, naked from the waist up. Then I got her dressed back up, walked her to her car, and sent her off. We'll settl this another time.
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