09-13-2014, 09:10 PM
(09-13-2014, 01:04 PM)athanas Wrote: good work! But how bizarre that you weren't anxious at the audition itself but before it you were...
Probably because of the clearing as you said, but then why was your clearing working better on the actual anxiety at the audition than on the anxiety of just the imagination of being at the audition?
Maybe also SM3 already worked heavily on your subconscious changing your personality at such a subtle level your conscious mind didn't catch up with it yet?
So your pre-SM3 self would have been anxious but your current self isn't and you just didn't know you changed that way until you actually experienced yourself behaving differently in that situation. That's often how I experience these subs. Sometimes I "feel" no change at all, but when I suddenly observe myself behaving completely differently than before, that's when it clicks.
Yeah, maybe I consciously expected it to be nervewrecking, and yet the closer I got to the experience, the more my mind was like: "relax Dan, you've got this.."
It really inspired me to look into improving my social life, since there's constant and lingering signals and emotions when it comes to having an exchange with many people at once. It often overloads my brain, and is probably my biggest sticking point. Why not tackle it if I'm not really going to be afraid when the time comes?
(09-13-2014, 01:04 PM)athanas Wrote: Either way, you're already having great results, I wonder what happens in Stage 4 where most people started to see the real changes...
Really? It's Stage 4? Oh good, I was worried that SM wasn't having an effect on me. I still feel very invisible with women. Glad to have something to look forward to.
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