03-01-2018, 08:48 AM
Day 7
I slept 9 hours last night. No anger issues today.
Decent date with a girl from Coffee Meets Bagel. I was weary with that app because all the girls I met from there have been virgins so far, so I screen heavily now before asking them out. This one is more open minded. We met and I was happy she's not ugly. However, I didn't feel sexual attraction to her. She's cute, but not sexy. She has no boobs too.
I kept up a self amusing and cheerful conversation. I asked her many questions too, hoping she'll show a side that turns me on, but nothing. I did some kino on her, she actually reciprocated, but not in a way that excited me. She paid for drinks in the end and hugged me enthusiastically before parting. I'm not sure whether I want to see her again.
It's becoming clearer that DMSI is making it hard for me to game girls who I am not genuinely sexually attracted to. I just didn't want to do it. If I was on MLS I'd be able to focus on what's attractive about her and somehow be excited because I want to be, but not on DMSI. Also, my thinking is becoming more "I hope I like her" than "I hope she likes me".
I tried a fun opener from the ETP group today on Tinder. "I say tin you say dur" "TIN". Pretty good responses. I think I'll have fun with this.
I slept 9 hours last night. No anger issues today.
Decent date with a girl from Coffee Meets Bagel. I was weary with that app because all the girls I met from there have been virgins so far, so I screen heavily now before asking them out. This one is more open minded. We met and I was happy she's not ugly. However, I didn't feel sexual attraction to her. She's cute, but not sexy. She has no boobs too.
I kept up a self amusing and cheerful conversation. I asked her many questions too, hoping she'll show a side that turns me on, but nothing. I did some kino on her, she actually reciprocated, but not in a way that excited me. She paid for drinks in the end and hugged me enthusiastically before parting. I'm not sure whether I want to see her again.
It's becoming clearer that DMSI is making it hard for me to game girls who I am not genuinely sexually attracted to. I just didn't want to do it. If I was on MLS I'd be able to focus on what's attractive about her and somehow be excited because I want to be, but not on DMSI. Also, my thinking is becoming more "I hope I like her" than "I hope she likes me".
I tried a fun opener from the ETP group today on Tinder. "I say tin you say dur" "TIN". Pretty good responses. I think I'll have fun with this.
