03-21-2017, 01:41 PM
Day 19 update
So I went to the party and I just came back home. It was shorter than I expected because it was middle of the week and everyone has classes or job early next day. There were 6 people in total, 3 guys and 3 girls. None of them was really giving me any IoIs but that girl I was dreaming about as I mentioned earlier was giving me the most. Sadly there was no occasion for any privacy or even 1-to-1 conversation. At the farewell she was the only one to want to hug me and I embraced her a bit harder. Funnily enough she sighed at that, almost like was something sweet for me to do. Except for her and my friend who invited me everyone was ghosting me I think. As I was not interested in any other female out there it shows sniper might have been doing something.
My verdict in scale 1 to 10 is we'll see. She's so damn beautiful I'd love to do more with her. Time will tell. I won't be losing any sleep about that though.
I decided to cut ties with that friend I mentioned earlier. I was sick of her attitude towards me. I don't feel well about it as it's clear to me she has issues and only I know how much I wanted to be a friend for her just as she was for me back during my wars with my ex. But she mistreats me no matter how much I want to reach out to her and that is unacceptable for me right now. It wasn't the right decision, it wasn't decision I am pride of, but it was a necessary one if I am to respect myself.
If in the future she wakes up and apologizes I will forgive her. If she asks for help I will help her. But none of this will ever come out of my own initiative.
So I went to the party and I just came back home. It was shorter than I expected because it was middle of the week and everyone has classes or job early next day. There were 6 people in total, 3 guys and 3 girls. None of them was really giving me any IoIs but that girl I was dreaming about as I mentioned earlier was giving me the most. Sadly there was no occasion for any privacy or even 1-to-1 conversation. At the farewell she was the only one to want to hug me and I embraced her a bit harder. Funnily enough she sighed at that, almost like was something sweet for me to do. Except for her and my friend who invited me everyone was ghosting me I think. As I was not interested in any other female out there it shows sniper might have been doing something.
My verdict in scale 1 to 10 is we'll see. She's so damn beautiful I'd love to do more with her. Time will tell. I won't be losing any sleep about that though.
I decided to cut ties with that friend I mentioned earlier. I was sick of her attitude towards me. I don't feel well about it as it's clear to me she has issues and only I know how much I wanted to be a friend for her just as she was for me back during my wars with my ex. But she mistreats me no matter how much I want to reach out to her and that is unacceptable for me right now. It wasn't the right decision, it wasn't decision I am pride of, but it was a necessary one if I am to respect myself.
If in the future she wakes up and apologizes I will forgive her. If she asks for help I will help her. But none of this will ever come out of my own initiative.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4